12:18 AM
Life in 21SA after Course in Arty Institute (AI)Yes... Life is gonna be much more tougher... 1st impression already gave me a negative feeling, to the extent that people there whom we saw them sweep the leaves on the road telling us "welcome to hell". Heard of the negative stuffs that they have, and it's all true...
No doubt, life in 21SA is gonna be at least 100 times more xiong den back in AI i believe, but I gotta learn to look on the bright side of it.. Yes, I complained and keep whining bad things about it, but I think this is not going to last throughout my stay in 21SA till I ORD next year August... I must think of positive things, like I believe that I am able to get Gold, or at least Sliver for my IPPT, and perform well in my role as a GA... Everyday in camp, no matter how tough or xiong or ridiculous the training can be, I must choose to carry the joy of the Lord in my heart. It's the joy that carries the strength that I need for my daily life especially in camp.
Perhaps, my life in BMT and in 6th AOC @ AI has been pretty slack and relaxed, and now I kena posted to this 21SA, which I really (3x) have cultural shock in a very xiong way... And especially when right now I know that I am allocated to battery line, just don't know which battery, and life in there can be even more tougher as compared to HQ line, and no matter how sick and tired I am going to be, I must choose to rely more on God and less of myself, because I know and I know that all these while, I keep depending on my own strength until I am pretty drained out, and right now, I believe this is the time....
Like what my CGL shared to me yesterday during the BS with me, my quiet time has to be interesting and new, in a sense that I don't do the usual quiet time style every time, and like what she shared and what I feel about myself, I need to really start changing for the better. I realised for the past few weeks, whenever I go for service or CG or serving in Usher Ministry, the feeling that I have is much different from the past before my NS... I used to be full of passion, and being an active helper in my CG, right now it has changed a lot from bad to worst... Everytime I will ask "where is my turning point of my life?", and when will I start prospering in my life, this answer may seem to come but always never come so far until now... Until yesterday when she shared a verse with me....
"Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers."
- 3 John 1:2 (NKJV)
The words "just as your soul prospers" stumbled me when I read that, and reflecting back, I find that it is very true why am I not prospering in my life... My soul already like quite cui, how to expect myself to prosper in all things and be in (good) health?
And everytime when I seem to forget the things that I have thought, I pray that God will lead me back to this blog and refer back to this blog entry, and always be reminded the things that God reveals or said to me through things and people around me....
Till then, I expect improvement for myself for the next few months at least....
P.S: and oh yea, I can't forget that everything that I have right now is from the grace of God, even the 2 days off for my unit, and a lot of other things....
Victor Lim
Saturday, November 01, 200810:08 PM
A tragic day to be remembered..(Sorry to delay the photos for JT and Irvin's birthday because of what I am gonna blog below..)
Yes... This day/date shall be Thursday. 30th October 2008.. Around 6pm, at the bus stop along Changi Rd (outside Venture Era there) =.="
What a way to end off the month of October... =.="
And it's just nice when Reuben and myself were about to onboard Service 2 down to City Hall area for dinner at around 5pm++ (close to 6pm) and this tragic thing happened to me..
All the while I have been quite cautious of my wallet and other important belongings such as handphones etc..
But....
On this very tragic date and time, I don't know how come I can freaking afford to drop my wallet (I guess so), and let me list down the things which was inside my wallet (those which I can remember one..)
- IC
- POSB ATM Card
- EZ-link Card
- Cash money of about $100
- Passion membership card (RP and Community Club one)
- ZONE-X Arcade Card
- SD Card (Which contains the recent photos in my camera cos my camera under maintainence)
- Some of the older bus tickets
- TECMAN membership card
- Some other cards which I forgot what liao..
The most heartbroken thing is that the wallet is something which my sister bought for me for my birthday this year, and the amount is a sum which is not cheap at all.... $99....
Yesterday night, got a good lecture by my mum, and on this night I felt super sad, super useless, super condemned, and I just can't resist it but to weep for like say half an hour..
At 1 point of time, I just feel that I have let down to my family a lot, especially my parents and sister, for all the wrongdoings or the carelessness things that I have done.. Been on this Earth for 20 years ++ and I still can afford to commit such things... Sometimes I just really need to reflect more deeply onto myself, what I have done for the past 20 years.. Next year is going to be the start of my adulthood when I turn 21, and how can I change myself for the better... Haiz..
This afternoon after my cell group meeting, I feel much more better but still not 100% yet.. I guess my life still have to move on no matter what.. What's done cannot be undone, and through this, it is a great lesson to be taught to me..
Have a few people that I really wish to thank for the past few days when this thing happened..
- Reuben (for being by my side when this thing happened, and the treat for dinner + trip back home, and all the things that you have told me especially at the bridge at Harbourfront..)
- Fang Sheng (for being my companion when taking Service 963 back home from Harbourfront, and to cheer up my mood while inside the bus)
- My parents (for the new wallet + ez-link card that they have made for me although I get hell lecture from my mum)
- A few other friends for being a listening ear to me when I told them about it..
I just hope that after this incident, I will be more (100x) cautious than ever in future, and not to lose my wallet in future (especially when there's my original IC inside).. Meanwhile I need some time to regain my mood...
Labels: lesson to be learnt
Victor Lim
Wednesday, April 09, 200811:24 PM
A lesson to be learnt...Skipped the afternoon part of the day because I got no mood to talk about it.. (Anyway it's mainly about FYP for afternoon)
Left the school at around 6pm++ and I went to Benjamin Shears Bridge (Esplanade side) to have my quiet time alone there... And 1 of the things I speak to God is about moulding my character, my life.... It has since came to pass in the form of my tagboard.. I was reminded of being too impulsive towards my harsh actions that I have did for the bus in the past few days.. I was being reminded of the moral values that I have impacted on others as well... Before that, I already post in SG Forums that I will try not to do it on certain bus services which my friends would tend to ride on, but after what was being told to me, I really get the point and really wanting to make an appointment to write down the "10 Commandments" in my own version to suit my personal self especially in the form of my character..
Annoymous (in my tagboard), now I know who you are, and I shall not reveal your name here to protect your privacy. But I really very thankful that you saw my entries in my blog and posted that to me, that once again, you have reminded me something... I know that you can be very blunt in your words at times, but to think back, sometimes, being blunt is good, in the sense that your message is being brought across in a more direct way, and I like people that just express their opinions in that way, rather than those who will just go 1 big round just to say something which is very minor.. So blessed to have a bus enthusiast friend like you, although you may seem to be fierce at times... ^_^
Whereas for Nameless (in my tagboard as well), I really wish to know who you are... Be it a bus enthusiast or not.. Don't worry I will NOT delete and deny the fact that I am in a wrong.. I am not like the old self anymore... Now that I am more willing to open up my heart, even in such kind of things like now.. Any opinions or things that you are really unhappy about, just make a point to tell me without any hesitation or fear that I might do some negative things here and there.. I will not be angry or having any grudge towards you for such comments, so please please, let me know who you really are... I really wish to talk to you about it... ^_^
And Jack as well (although he never tagged me in my blog but I have spoken to him through the phone).. It has been a great blessings to have friends like you, to keep constantly reminding me of the things that I have done, especially the negative ones like now... Got the points that you have said to me just now, and I will really make a point to really write down the 10 Commandments of my own version for myself, just like the 10 Commandments in the book of Exodus in the bible, Chapter 20, Verses 1 to 17...
Shall end off this entry with a prayer and after that I will think through what to write for the 10 Commandments of my own version for myself...
Lord, i thank You for 1 of my prayers which i have prayed for just now at Benjamin Shears Bridge to come to pass, and i really feel guilty and sorry for the negative things that i have committed. Lord, as i seek forgiveness from You, i pray that You will continue to mould me and change me in terms of my character. Lord, i pray that You will remove the impulsiveness that i really have, and cleanse me from all the unrighteousnesses that i have, provide me with a new and clean set of character. Lord, i don't want to be the old self and repeat my old self character ever again. CHANGE me, EMPOWER me, RECHARGE me with a new set of myself and i really want to continue having my life in a better way each day.. In Jesus mighty name i pray... Amen...
I will instruct you and teach you in the way which you should go; I will counsel you with My eye upon you.
- Pslams 32:8
Labels: lesson to be learnt
Victor Lim