3:12 PM
RelievedHi all, it has been quite some time ever since i last updated my blog.. Yea.. First thing first, i have changed my blog template yet again =) This template seem to look more neater than the previous one IMO.
It's a good thing that my life seem to be more better tha the previous few weeks when i'm super moody and feeling down. Whenever i'm feeling very down, i tend to think back to my good old secondary school days and my motivation to live on starts from there =) Songs can be also very sensitive to me. I find that whenever i listen to certain particular songs, my mood will naturally adjust accordingly, so please don't ever let me listen to the "wrong" songs which will have negative effects on me after listening to it, because listening to songs tend to make me think and think and think..
The day before yesterday was the day which i went back to VE (after a long time ever since i last went there) and took something from Mr Shun Jie which i would then pass on to my grandma for her as she's not feeling well. Well, i see a lot of new faces which i have never ever seen them before, and also can see a lot of changes in them. Hmm.. It's about time i should go back there and learn more new things, but that would most probably be after my school term ends which is somewhere in mid-Feburary. It has been for quite some time ever since i last went there with my executive attire, sometimes when i think back during the times i had in 200t6 in VE, i really miss them a lot.. All the good and the bad times i ever had inside.
Yesterday was the VE's AGM Seminar, i didn't attend it due to some reasons. Wasted man.. But nevermind, it's also good that i never attend because i may feel very bad. Why bad? Because for the past 2 quarterly seminiar in 2006, i went there with no sense of pride for myself, i.e, i didn't put in much effort and feel no sense of achievement. I do hope that by the next quarterly seminar, i can at least achieve something and have the sense of achievement and to continue to work even harder.
Yesterday was also the day when i personally went down to my grandma's house with my mother's sister at home. Then i was explaining to my mother's sister about the thing i'm going to bring for my grandma to consume and how it helps my grandma to improve her health conditions. Thank god my mother's sister really give me their best support and trust me a lot regarding to this thing and talk more about this thing for a while before i left at about 6pm. (Unlike my parents who were not supportive and even scolded me for this and that) I told my mother's sister to call back to my mother in the next few days to update about my grandma's health status, and hopefully i can gain trust and support from my parents from this. =)
Hmm just finished my team's presentation. My faciliator touches 1 part about the parents' thinking of their child(ren) starting a business after they finished their educational studies. I totally agree to my faci that last time when it's their generation, their parents don't really allow them to start their own business and instead to find a DECENT paying job. (Noticed i CAP lock the word) It really relates to me when i told my parents that i want to start a business last year in June. (That's the Network Marketing that i 'm talking about)
Yes, talking about that, i started to know about it only last year when i of my IG friends (whom both of us quit that IG le, called EMIG) bring me down to VE and let me discovered to a whole new environment, and from there, i get to expose myself to the various knowledges about this new form of business which i never ever heard before called Network Marketing (or some who called it Multi-Level Marketing), and even taught us about what is legal and what's not, because there are some companies which uses illegal form of doing business, and told us to be aware of it. From there, i also get to have a interest in it and i even went on to read up some books about Network Marketing when i'm free. Also, it doesn't need $$$ for one to start a Network Marketing business (this excludes your personal transportation fees, foods and other personal expences).
Okay i shall stop writing here for now, my faci has somehow caught me typing and doing my own stuff while other teams are presenting.. Will update later when i'm free.. Cya..
[ok now after school time le.. continue my blogging from here..]
Ok.. Now that i'm inside the school library, together with 1 of my W26L classmate and another one who went with his current classmates for soccer at the school sports hall there, i really don't know what should i do now.. Wish to blog but also don't know what to write.. Whatever i wish to say it's already all on the top le.. Till now, my faci still haven open the RJ for us, to think she even told us just now that she will extend the RJ submission to next day morning at 8am.
Hmm.. Maybe i shall write something about Year 2 in RP.. Well, basically year 2 modules that we have are all IT based one, and no module about business at all. How pathetic lo.. Other polys their business cum IT modules at least is not like ours.. For our (RP) case, only in year 3 then we will be able to study business modules. In actual fact, i feel that i'm more to Business-orientated person rather than IT-orientated person. I started to have this interest in business since secondary 4 when i studied POA (Principles of Accounts). It has a lot of areas which i can explore on, such as franchising, MLM, and other types of business and their models, very interesting to go and read up about it.. Maybe for year 2, i will just do my best to score well in all the IT modules, since i told myself that i have no excuse unlike the 1st year modules which we get to learn things that are not related to our course at all. For that, as long as my overall GPA for year 1 modules got pass and get to promote to year 2, i'm very happy le.. But from year 2 onwards, i must tell myself that i'm going to set a high expectation for myself, so as to cover up the losses i have for year 1 modules that caused my overall GPA to pull down.
In year 2, we also have a "special" module called Professional Profiling, PP in short. For this PP, we are supposed to interview a person in a company, and ask him/her various questions which will help in our PP. From there, we have to do up a presentation on that and we also have to summarise all of them in 1 or 2 something like Vanguard sheet but it's not vanguard sheet. My personal wish is that i will be able to do this very professionally, be it the way of doing things or attire (ah, talking about the attire it's best if i can just dress very formally, i.e, my executive attire with black blazer). I must have the discipline in myself that whenever i dress in executive attire, i have to work very seriously (those that are supposed to be serious one).
There is also another "special" module called "Creative Engagement" (CE, in short) which we have to fulfil the minimum number of CE points by attending talks and participating in various activities that are available. So year 2 is the time where we have to whack it by actively attending as many talks as possible (actually is just only for the sake of fulfilling the minimum amount of CE points required). Nothing to say much about this anyway..
Okay.. Time now is 6:21pm and my friend is still not back from soccer, still have to wait for him a while more, as his belongings and everything are all with us. When he come back, we would just go off to somewhere for our dinner (hopefully not Causeway Point because i went there until i very sianz)
And even till now, my faci still haven OPEN the RJ for us to write and submit. We don't even know what's the RJ question about.
Okay.. I think i really have nothing to write about for now le.. Shall end my entry here for today.. Shall write again next time when i'm free. Cya guys around =)
Victor Lim
Saturday, January 20, 20074:11 PM
Sitting at Chinatown Point Mac Now..Hmm.. having informed by Kenny, (that SBS9889U aka the Transformer is on its ex-perm service 147 today) i make my trip down to Chinatown area and wait for that Transformer to come. In the meantime, i dropped by a Mac in Chinatown Point where i can just sit down and use my laptop, at the same time looking at the window outside to keep a lookout for that Transformer.
This morning, i chatted with some of my secondary school friends whom i have not contacted them for a long time.. Chatted about our life in poly for the past 1 year (2006), and at least i feel a bit better after that.. I'm really looing forward to the day where we can just sit down together (late at night) and chit chat... Talk about various things, from school life to personal life, so on and so for..
And now, the weather at Chinatown is pretty bad, the rain also pretty heavily.. Weather dull, also somehow makes my mood dull also at times like now..
Okay.. Seem like SBS9889U is coming really soon le.. Shall blog later when i happen to use laptop later on..
Victor Lim
12:03 AM
Feel very heartpain!! =( Very teary =(Just a while ago, i accompanied my parents to visit my grandma (mum's side). It has been quite a long time since my last visit to my geandma's house. When i was there, greeting my grandma, she seem to be forgotten about me, which i feel that it's very sad, but when my mum tried to recall my grandma, then she slowly can remembered, and even ask for my brother whether how come he never come.
After that stayed down there for a while, and i realised that her condition state wasn't that normal.. She seem to have a lot of difficulties consuming food (don't know whether is it her appetite problem or what), cough quite badly, and also having a lot of phlegm on her throat. Her face appearance also doesn't seem to be okay.. When i see all these, i really feel very very sad for her, very worried about her health conditions, as my parents told me that she just kena discharged from hospital.. Haiz.. I feel so heartpain when i see her having to suffer a lot a lot.. Sobx.. At that point of time I was very teary, but i managed to resist my tears from dropping out.. Haiz..
Immediately after that, i sms 1 of my most trusted and favourite BM in VE about it, seeking the best solution from him, and i even willing to fork out some of my savings to help her.. At least a bit.. I really really want to show them how sincere i really want to help my grandma.. Haiz.. Now have to wait for him to reply me through sms, and hopefully, by tomorrow or sunday, i can just make a trip down back to the office and get (buy) the necessary things for my grandma..
**Really need a god blessing to my grandma, hope that her state of health condition getting better as the day goes by..** even if she really leave the world so fast (touchwood!!), i also do really hope that she can just leave very peacefully without having to suffer so much.. **getting more and more teary but no matter what, i still have to STAND STRONG and continue to live on!! I cannot let all these unhappy things to affect my goals that i have set for myself!! **
With that, i will end my blogging for today..
**peace** =(
Victor Lim
Friday, January 19, 20072:19 PM
So sianz in RP IT Helpdesk now..Yes.. and i just did a 2nd time of reformatting my laptop for this week.. Well done well done.. (as if!!) and also to pon module lesson for 3 consectutive days.. (my 1st time 3 day in a row pon lesson).
Just happened to hear some piano music which really inspires me to learn to play piano well, and eventually to be able to produce some nice music piano songs such as Tong Hua from Guang Liang and etc etc etc..
Ok.. Got to continue to finish settling my laptop stuffs.. Will stop blogging here for now..
Just a reminder to my W16L guys and gals, please pay $15 (per person) to me by this coming Tuesday (23 January 2007) so that i can make a trip down to Aloha Changi to book the chalet ASAP.. Those who not going for the chalet, please make an effort to inform me before this coming Tuesday because i want to know how many and who are the people who's going for this chalet.. Thanks!!
Victor Lim
Thursday, January 18, 20074:39 PM
Part 2...Okie.. Here am i, at National Library now.. Pon school today again halfway just because of my laptop problem issues.. Ok.. don't talk about that anymore.. Make me feel so du lan, so fed up.. Fine lo.. The IT Helpdesk people really want to test my patience, let them be!!
Coming back to the topic..
Past 2 days, when i random click on some of my friends link in Friendster, i happened to see 1 of my senior's friendster link, and through there, i visited his blog. Inside his blog, when i read through every single of his blog entry, it really makes me thinking back of the good old memories during my secondary school days.. Haiz.. How i wish i can really go back to the past.. Now, as we move along to our next chapter of our lives which is the poly days, i seldom get in touch with my secondary school classmates (especially my very own good buddies i have, like Zhen Sheng, Zhi Wei etc etc..). Maybe this is because of the fact that i'm pursuing my diploma in Republic Polytechnic whereas most of my friends are all in Ngee Ann Poly instead.. Seriously, i really miss those times where we study, play, and going out with them, especially when i had a heart-to-heart chatting session with Zhen Sheng in the middle of the night and voice out our personal problems. I really treasured that session with him very much, this is because of the fact that he has helped me a lot in improving myself and eventually changing my life to a better one from that day onwards. Yes.. Those were the good old times..
Currently it's raining over here (Bugis, Suntec, Raffles Place that area), and when i look outside the windows, i can see the scenery building of Suntec City and Esplanade, together with the rain which makes my mood feel even more moody and keep on thinking back of the past.. I still remembered the beginning of the Semester 1 of Year 2006 whereby i happened to saw them at BPJ Plaza MacDonald and all of us were using our laptops for our school assignment stuffs, and we were chatting about our initial life in our various polys and some other stuffs..
I do really hope that these good old memories would come back in this new year 2007.. A new year, a new beginning, i do really hope that we will find some time to meet up together to get in touch with one another.. Can be for chatting, playing pool (still remembered those times at Bt Timah Plaza, the top level one), and some other stuffs like going for movie etc etc.. Stepping inside our poly life doesn't mean we would neglect one another in terms of friendship and some other stuffs, right guys? Once a week or month of meeting up together will make a difference, i.e, to strengthen our friendship bonding..
Okay.. Next thing i get inspired by this senior of mine's blog is the goals that he has.. It really reminds me of the times i have in VE (for late 2006).. In VE, they also talking about the goals that we want to set, to achieve them as fast as possible.. I still remembered in the initial days of joining VE which i have set a goal for myself which is to achieve the car incentives by Year 3 of my poly life which is about 1 year ++ from now.. And for the past 2 months or more, i have been slacking away, keep on using "spotting bus, take photo of buses", "going out with poly friends most of the time" as an excuse.. What's really wrong with me?? Yes, i know being in this newly industry is very hard in the pioneer years, where VE has started in 2000 with no office at all.. Faced a lot of objections in this industry, somemore it's from my relatives, my family, even my teachers also.. Sometimes i just keep on asking myself these questions:
When will ever be the day when i can get to
1. Wear blazer with my formal smart attire? (question not that direct, but the feeling is very direct)
2. Hit the car incentives? So that i can get to drive the car which i desired for.
3. Hit black belt in Wushu.
4. Really depend on myself for expenses and even give parents $$$?
5. Master the professional skills of photography? So that i can take photos of nice scenery shot (especially at night) and of course, the buses!!
6. Hit at least $1k in my personal bank account?
7. Get to travel overseas without worrying too much in terms of expenses? (especially to places like Hong Kong, Sydney, Australia and some other nice places)
8. Become very professional in terms of Basketball skills (people like Zhi Wei and Zhen Sheng)
9. Become at least a decent swimmer who at least i can float in swimming pools and seas? so that from there i can venture out to sea sport activities such as kayaking, and also to be able to cope well for NS too!
Actually, there's more questions to come, but this is the top few which i wish/want to prioritize on. As you can see, the goals are not actually just solely related to business, sales and marketing, it can also be in other forms which are all of my interests as well. We only get to live once in this world, (somemore less than 100 years in average) so we must make full use of ourselves to do something which we really really desire for before we don't even get to have the 2nd chance to live in this world (which i do really hope so). DON'T because of the objections around us (especially our parents, in most case is mother one) that caused us to change our lives which will only caused UNHAPPINESS and REGRETS. As i said in my previous blogs from the late 2004 onwards, sometimes their generation just don't understand ours.. Most typical and practical example would be the study one.. Always keep on "nagging" and "scolded" us to study and study and study ONLY!! They would say things like "aiya, that one (which is what we desired for, for my case is the newly industry which i mentioned) can wait until you finish study first.." and "come on, stop doing all those stuffs (which is also what we desired for) and get on to your studies, and after finish studying, get a DECENT job (which is those 8 to 5 [8am to 5pm] kind of job)." Seriously speaking, do you ever think that you can achieve all your goals when your monthly salary is just merely less than $3k per month?? Somemore with this stressful society and the high expenses in Singapore..
Okay.. Talking for so much, i also do really hope that it's not NATO (No Action, Talk Only), but at the same time, it do really requires a period of time. Now the question is "How long is your 'period of time'? How many days or months or even years is your 'period of time'?"
Okay i shall end this blog entry here.. Gonna catch the only Service 700 bendy bus (for evening peak) back home.. Cya guys around.. =) Take care wohz!~
Victor Lim
7:47 AM
Part 1..Ok now i have about 15 minutes to blog before i step out of my house to go to school.
Hmm.. At least for these few days, my mood seem to get better bit by bit, day by day.. Past few days i have been thinking too much and i keep on worrying too much about certain things which i mentioned in my previous blog entry.. Really wish to thanks those who came to me and console me, mostly through MSN.. But 1 thing i realized is during bathing i still tend to keep on thinking too much which can be very scary for me. Haiz..
*Ok victor, don't feel very sad about it and don't think too much le.. I gonna MOVE ON with it and I'm gonna look at the BRIGHTER SIDE of my life!!!*
Okay.. Now looking at the brighter side of my life, yesterday i pon school again just to collect my digital camera which is at Fujifilm Repair Centre at Upper Paya Lebar Rd there.. Cos.. Enterprise module i haven pon yet, and it's the only date i can pon on Wednesday because other Wednesdays all got UT sia.. Haha.. Okay.. After collecting back my camera, first thing i proceeded all the way to Hougang and take photos of buses as usual.. The sunlight for the morning and afternoon was damn good until people come and ask me "What happened to you? How come your hand, face and ears are all very red? Sunburnt ah?" Lolx..
Okay.. Pai seh time is up for me for now.. Have to go school le.. Got time i will continue to write.. Cya guys around =)
Victor Lim
Tuesday, January 09, 20074:02 PM
Long time no update..These few days i have been busying with my own stuffs, that's why i never update my blog till now.. 2 major stuffs happening with 1 hidden stuff which i can't tell everyone here (regarding last Saturday's outing with our 'VIP"), but truly, last Saturday, i really enjoyed my day with some of my bus enthusiast friends at Suntec and eventually we ended up at Jurong Point to have our dinner before we "off service" back home..
Last Sunday marks the beginning of Service 966 amendment to provide a direct and fast access to Eunos and Marine Parade for Bukit Panjang residents. That also indirectly marks the beginning of the added frequency time for this Service as SMRTB is not willing to add any bus.. They even reduced 1 bus if i'm not wrong.. -_-" Okay enough said of this.. (sry i dun have the mood to talk even further..)
These few days, i don't know what exactly has happened to me.. I keep on thinking about what happened to me after i leave this human world.. Keep on thinking and it makes me lose concentration of the things i do and of course my mood.. Somemore today's cognitive problem the worksheet got 1 question keep on talking about killing.. I really hate those people who kill innocent lives of we the fellow human being, and some, of course, are caused by natural disasters which can't be helped.. Haiz.. Really, i cannot afford to imagine what will happen to me after my death.. Haiz.. How well if we the human beings can live forever.. Really, i hate to leave this world which we can afford to enjoy a lot of things.. Sometimes, i just think that humans are like robots, just that humans tend to be more flexible while robots tend to be more rigid.. Haiz.. What exactly can we do when we leave this world 1 fine day? Everyone will die eventually, but is a matter of time and period.. Sometimes people are asking whether they are afraid or scared of death, but for my case, i guess i really do afraid and scared a lot such that it even creates a lot of fear within myself.. Haiz.. Sometimes i just do really thinking why we have only about 100 years to live in this world and not more?? I really feel very heart pain whenever i think of those poor people living in 3rd world country.. Imagine if they were really born to suffer in this world.. How can this be?!? It SHOULDN'T be that way!!! ARGH!!! Haiz... Sometimes i do really wonder will i proceed to another world when we leave this world.. Really feel like crying after i finish this blog entry but i will try my best not to because all the way i am trying to control my emotions, my feelings.. Sometimes, i just couldn't put aside all these stuffs when it comes to work or study.. Maybe i am just having too many doubts about this but it really can't be helped, just because i am too emotional perhaps? Haiz.. My faciliator just talked about abortion.. Abortion.. Really it's a form of cruel act in my opinion.. Let me ask them a question, i.e, why they don't want to give that particular baby a chance to born in this world? WHY WHY WHY??? I just cannot understand and i just cannot ACCEPT the fact that they actually abort their babies!!! ARGH!!! Haiz.. :-(
At times, when i do my self reflection, i always ask myself whether i have really make full use of my 18 years of life from baby when i stayed in Serangoon.. Really, we only have 1 chance to live in this world, and we really ought to cherish our precious and only live a lot a lot, and not to waste this only chance to live in this world.. Sometimes, i just do wondering whether should i really be born in this reality world.. Haiz.. Before i end this blog entry, i really do wish to share a song lyrics with all of you here which i feel that it's really meaningful, although this song is actually pretty old.. but old song = more and deeper memories behind it..
Forever Young - Alphaville
Let's dance in style
Let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait
We're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best
But expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not
Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power
But we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit
Life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is wrong
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders
We're getting in tune
The music's played by the madmen
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
Some are like water
Some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later
They all will be gone
Why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We'll let them come true
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
Victor Lim