It's Sunday late evening now (7:25pm) and I still got my lunch to settle at home + bathing and time left for me is really not much.. In fact it's gonna be rushing for me... I got to leave house at around 8:15pm latest to go to Sheng Siong @ Ten Mile Junction and then rush to meet my bunkmate to booking in early...

And (sorry to use the word "damn") my mum is rushing me for dinner and I feeling kinda frustrated and don't have the sense of peace in my heart right now... Really what I feel like doing is, before I sleep in my bunk later, I really wanna quieten down myself before God, and really wanna pray and ask for restoration in my heart and the peace of God to flow in me....

Whether my confinement gonna be this coming weekend or following weekend or etc, I gotta be ready for it, and not gonna waste the weekend in camp doing things that is not worth of value to me and to God...

Before I end off here, just wanna share this song with every reader here... (from Youtube) It's a very touching worship song that I just can't stop listening...

I feel that God has a great purpose in placing me in AI and not other army units. In BMT, God only revealed to me a small portion of it, but when comes to AI, this is when God wants to show me great examples of my fellow brothers-in-Christ who really live up to their Christian values despite of how positive/negative examples of their personal character can be. More details of this I will say it here after my next bookout after the confinement weekend.

Well... As for the confinement weekend, I learn to take it positively. I will be confined with 1 of my coursemate but different bunk. Though I may spend in my bunk alone especially at night and will feel very lonely, I know that God is with me and He will not leave nor forsake me, and His presence will be always there for me. This is also the best time that I will spend a peaceful quiet time with God, seeking after Him, and just wanna dwell into His presence..

Alright.. I shall go bathing and set off to camp le... Blog again 2 weeks later...

I thank God for today's message/sermon during the service just now in the morning by Pst Tan. He really preached an awesome message about this new Year 2010. Out of the 3 important points that he shared, 1 of which he talks about forgetting the things of the past, and he shared this verse which hits me really damn hard, in Isaiah 43:18, in NIV version, it says "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.", and he also shared another verse along that line, in Philippians 3:13-14, in NLT version, it says "No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.". Well... for a moment, I paused, and really ask myself this question, i.e., whether am I willing to TOTALLY forget all the past bad moments and memories that I have, and really looking forward to what lies ahead in Year 2010 that God has instilled for me?

Well... Sometimes I wonder whether the race of life for me is as fast as this F1 car above in the photo?? (Photo taken during last year 2009's F1 night race)

And before I close off this blog entry and going for a bath before I book in to my camp, times when I am really feeling very down or faithless, sometimes I don't know whether I really live my life upon this verse above.... God I pray, that this year, let me once again really (3x) believe 100% totally, that through You, all things are possible to those who believe in Christ Jesus. Amen. (Photo taken during Year 2008 Christmas season outside Tangs Plaza)

On that night, supposingly to have countdown with CG, but end up was told that the plan was cancelled, and I really felt super sianz 1/2. End up I met with 1 of my very good CG friend + 1 of his friends for dinner and countdown at pub thereafter. 3 person shared 2 jugs of Tiger Beer, and for the first time, as a very passive and noob drinker, I just felt like drinking even more and after that found myself swaying to left and right, feeling kinda unconscious.. Thank God that I still can control after that and being able to cross the road feeling conscious at that moment till after crossing it.

I really thought at first after drinking, I can totally let go of all these unhappy and "sway" events that happened, but end up I was wrong... The next day which is yesterday, I really literately rot at home for the whole day with my face in front of my laptop screen, just wasting my time away.. Felt that I still can't totally let go of everything and move on, and felt like going for drinking somemore, but somehow, God has reminded me in 1 Corinthians 6:19, that my body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, and I shouldn't harm my body just like that..

Transiting to Year 2010, although I haven't set my resolution for this year, but I really wanna believe that this year will be a greater and better year in which through Christ, I will excel well in the various aspects of my life, and 1 thing for sure is that each and every single year, I tell myself that I really want to grow more stronger and deeper in my Christian walk, but whether how stronger and deeper, that will be another question...

Right now... I'm really lost in words to type it here... I really don't want to think anything further and just let the peace of God come into my heart.......

Before ending off, just wanna wish everyone a Happy and Blessed Year 2010!