3:14 PM
Life in RP simply sux!!Haiz.. Have to tahan 1 and a half more years to finish suffering from school......
RP courses sucks!
RP modules sucks!
Life in RP sucks!
RP building build so nice for fuck!!
Appearance nice nice only!!
But once you got into RP as RP student, prepare to suffer 3 years of HELL...
I repeat, THREE years of HELL!!!
1st year is all the bullshit modules!! Not related to your course AT ALL!!!
2nd and 3rd year, depend on what course you are in....
Must tell all my juniors who are still schooling in Secondary schools:
If ever you wish to further your studies in Business,
DO NOT EVER COME TO RP!!!
1st thing, RP don't even have "School of Business" in the first place!!
2nd thing, all RP's Business related modules will have to suffer 1 FULL YEAR OF IT, IT and IT modules!!! Stress till you die!!!
That's all I wish to say for now... Haiz...
Period.
Victor Lim
Monday, July 30, 200711:59 PM
Crappy poly + want to CHANGE job!!!Was going out with Kenny, Bing He and my junior, Christopher, just now to train him for night shot... And when accompany Chris to buy tripod at Challenger @ Funan I.T Mall, the ang moh salesman talk cock with us and when talking about school, deep in my heart I already feel regretted about choosing RP (although on the outside of me looks okay). My junior talk about his ITE until so damn good lar... He said about the upcoming new campus with a lot of facilities and shopping mall operated by students of ITE West and a lot about their Business orientated courses... I was like feeling very heartpain after hearing all these when comparing with RP....
Last Saturday, went out with 1 of my ex-VE friends, 1 of his ex-classmates and a group of his church friends, for a game of pool at The Cue Factory and dinner... They also were like WTH away when I told them about all the crappy RP stuff... Haiz....
Come to night time, we had dinner @ Bt Batok Central before coaching my junior some night shots nearby that area.. At least, from this, I somehow have a sense of satisfaction being able to coach my junior pretty well.. Talking about work ah.... He told me his side the pay higher (i.e $6/hr) as compared to mine ($5/hr) and my job scope being in F&B industry, is even more xiong (tough) than his... And because of this, at all cost, I will avoid working on Fridays, Saturdays, eve of Public Holiday and Public Holiday itself.... As for his, he even work for full day shift man... I wonder how I going to cope with it for my case (which is The Cafe Cartel)... Haiz... Somemore my monthly salary will NEVER EXCEED $300... Compared with his one ah... Got exceed $1k lo... Haiz... Don't know la... Haiz... I'm getting more sick and tired of the current job I'm working currently... and I really want to....
CHANGE JOB!!!
Haiz... No mood to blog anymore le... Shall stop blogging here for now le.... I'm getting more and more EMO now le... Haiz...
Victor Lim
Thursday, July 26, 20071:49 PM
Change blogskin again...Hey people, I have ever since change my blogskin again.... The EMO blogskin I already change it because of the problem with my tagboard...
Hmm... well, some people has asked me why I change to this slam dunk blogskin instead of what bus thing, and I have told all of them that it's a long story... Haiz...
This blogskin, really brings me back a lot a lot of memories... Haiz... Don't wish to say a long story here... But the question that really strikes into my mind is, whether when will be the day I step into bball court and play again..
All along so far within this 1 year plus ever since i study in RP (especially when it comes to Year 2), I have been telling myself to step into the court and play again, but I am always busy with a lot a lot of stuffs.... School work, martial arts, buses, outside work, are the main factors which causes me to be like that.... So much so that I have been getting more and more stressed up and emo these few months, especially with learning of I.T (in particularly, Object Orientated Programming which is the Java module) which really makes me very very very demoralized and low morale... Haiz....
At least for now, it's not that bad as I seek help from my friends and seniors whenever I need help (be it for school work or personal life..) and whenever I have troubles, they are willing to lend me a listening ear and help me solve all my troubles... =) Without them, I don't think I will be able to pull through it and go on my life journey with happiness...
Okay... Shall post some photos since it has been quite a long time I last posted any photos... Pai seh bus photos for now because I just select some photos I uploaded to my photobucket (for bus forums one..). Other photos I will upload them when I get back home... Lolx.. Okay.. Till then, cya guys around and take care! ^_^
Victor Lim
Tuesday, July 24, 200710:14 AM
Java UT 3..Today really got bad and emo day for me... Haiz..
First of all, I decide to change my blogskin because I really want something which really resembles how I feel the best.. So... This emo blogskin, which I found it just a moment ago, is the chosen one... Comments on this blogskin!! (at my tagboard when it's up)
Now.... Comes to Java UT 3 for today, I really really don't know will I be able to get a better grade (at least a 'B') this time round... Haiz... Last 2 UT grades for Java I have been getting D+ and C... Yesterday night, as usual went to Jack's house for Java clinic... Went through until Problem 8 for 6Ps and I already want to K.O le... As usual, reached back home at close to 12am, and I was supposed to revise through a bit more before I went to bed... In the end, I was already damn tired and online at MSN for a while before I K.O and sleep.... (Without bath somemore because I really cannot tahan le..)
As I took Service 105 from his house yesterday night, I tried very hard not to think too much, but to no avail.. Haiz... Form outside his house, can see the whole night scenery even until the OCBC bank and all the high-rise commercial buildings over at Raffles Place... That kind of night scenery view even makes me more EMO... 1 fine night, I shall make a visit to the Library @ Esplanade and sit down at the sofa facing the night skyline view from 7pm to 9pm... And too pity I don't really know how to play some emo songs using piano, else I will be sitting down there and play all the emo songs...
Right now in class, I don't know whether can I still concentrate well from 2nd meeting till the Java UT 3... Haiz... I REALLY NEED A BREAK WHICH CAN REALLY COOL DOWN MY EMO-ness!!! Haiz haiz haiz..........
Victor Lim
Monday, July 23, 20072:17 AM
Changes..These few weeks, really a lot of changes went into me.. Really, after all these Java sessions with Jack, a lot of things went into my mind, and from then onwards, my learning attitude (for Java) and mood start to become more positive, my motivation to learn started to getting positive and better..
But however, due to my ultimately busy schedule, I'm still getting very stressed up at times, and at times, whenever I think back and do self-reflection, I really think a lot a lot, which really makes me very emo, and my emo can be as bad as crying very badly (of course not cry like a kid, scream here and there), which now i a bit feel like doing so...
Because of all these stressed up and busy schedule, I have since ever (temporary) stop working (The Cafe Cartel @ J8), and as usual, night trainings I will only attend Wednesday which is the Adult Wushu class. Other nights I will be busy for some other things.. Now, with my PP (Professional Profiling) going along, I will cut down the amount of time for my bus spotting le...
Happened to view through Shi Sheng's friendster (knew him through Cluster West 6 camp 2002/2003 i forgot which year le) and know that he has joined a very well known company, which is the AKLTG. From what I know (because I have went through this motivational course in Zhenghua Sec Sch during my Sec 4 days..), it's really a very reputable company which has successfully giving motivational courses in many schools around Singapore, and so far, it has been a very successful one for them.. The booklet that were given to us during the motivation course in 2004, I still kept it in my book shelf in my bedroom. Over there, I really learn a lot a lot of things and I got to realize the purpose of myself being existance in this world, what am I really in this world for...
Indeed, I supposed he really learn even more stuffs after he joined AKLTG as a company and I can see the great changes in him from the time we knew each other during the Cluster West 6 camp, till now, being very motivated. Few days back, chatting with him on MSN, was a really nice session, as we also have not contacted and met up with each other ever since after the camp, and it's counted in years... Not to forget all our team mates during the Cluster West 6 camp in 2002/2003 held at Hwa thong JC too! We have not even had any gathering ever since after the camp.. Hope that all of us can really meet up someday for gathering. (too bad I can't manage to find the old photos
A few moment ago, I was also viewing through all my friends list in my Friendster account, and view some of their profiles, all these really bring me back a lot a lot of memories, and some of them are really the unforgettable ones.. And all these memories I doubt it will be able to bring back here for now... Some of them I have not even contacted with them for quite a long long time... Well................................................
Some day, when I'm free, I shall upload some photos to my blog... For now, I need some rest for the Web Multimedia lesson later on in the morning..... Shall stop blogging here for now... Nitez everyone...
Victor Lim
Sunday, July 15, 20078:57 PM
RJ for Java and comments from faciliator..These few days, damn stressed up and emo... But this is what I really tempted to blog, something to do with Java OOP module..
Last Thursday, for those who were present in class (W66C), you should have seen my black black face in class especially when that Ah Pek asked me questions about Java, 2 times somemore... Don't wish to explain further to further spoil my mood... Shall let the RJs do the talking..
My RJ submission:
Pineapple. I choose that is because of the acidic content that can damage our tongues when consumed too much of it. This applies for my experience of learning (Java) OOP. To me, learning this programming is such a pain in the ass. To think I choose this course is because mainly of Business modules, and now year 2, I have to suffer with all these shit programming like hell! Throughout this whole semester from Day 1 of this module, I have been struggling badly for programming and it got worsen as the weeks past by. Whats more, even for programming modules like (Java) module, we also have to learn it through the Problem Based Learning (PBL)
method. To think for other polytechnic, their programming module doesn't really need to do a lot of RESEARCH to FIND the code themselves, whereas RP is the other way round (i.e, we have to search the internet and books for the codings like HELL!).
Seriously speaking, it's not always feasible to make use of PBL for each and every single module that RP has. For some modules, PBL is very useful and enhance our learning more better, but for some modules, it has adverse effects instead.
All in all, throughout all these weeks of HELL journey in Year 2 (for OOP module), it has been a damn great painful experience for me, and I really hope all these sufferings will come to a end in 5 weeks time. Period.
Comments from Ah Pek aka my faciliator:
Wow, you really expressed your frustration and bitterness in learning OOP.
OOP IS difficult to learn unfortunately. (A lot of deep thinking has gone into its creation and that is why it is so powerful and so well-used in the business world.) Of course learning it through PBL does make it harder. But to put all the blame on PBL might be a bit unfair too.
OOP requires practise -- lots of practise. (The other polytechnics would have homework for this.) You do need to be hands-on in coding during every lesson. Although sample codes are not totally given, the worksheets do provide some guidance: the concepts and reasoning are gradually build up from the previous lessons. You do need to read it carefully. Missing any lesson does hinder your subsequent learning too. Thus you have to commit (either in class or on your own at home, if you missed it somehow) to learning each lesson before moving on the the next one. (Also, just before the next lesson starts, a quick review of the previous 2 6Ps would help a lot.)
I did see your commitment in the first few lessons (scoring mostly Bs, which were good). But maybe your quiet, sensitive nature has kept this difficult learning experience all bottled up until now and then it exploded in this lesson.
Life is not always easy. Your classmates face this difficult situation too. But unless you too want to help yourself (ie commit to paying attention during class discussions without IM distraction, reviewing your previous lessons weekly, coding some parts of the program, and discussing issues with your team mates), otherwise OOP will continue to frustrate your efforts to learn it here unfortunately.
In the end, i got a D grade for this because I also chabot halfway right after 2nd meeting..
Just had a Java Clinic session with Jack at Suntec Starbucks in the afternoon, very good i must say. He really makes me feel motivated and he really explained everything very clear cut and well, and also easier to understand, rather than the Ah Pek, say already I also damn blur and lost... This Thirsday I'm going to have another round of Java Clinic session with him again at night, and I make a promise, if these 5 weeks left of Java I can get at least 3 Bs out of the 5 or 1 As for my daily grade, or get a As grade for my Java UT, I'm going to treat him for a dinner at The Cafe Cartel or some other restaurants =) Really, without the great help and motivation of such a damn good seniors like him, I think sooner or later I'm going to sink in the sea instead of getting rescued and buck up for my grades.. =) And also thanks to all those who gave me guidance and motivations for the past few days when I'm really really down... =)
Victor Lim
Thursday, July 12, 200710:02 AM
EMO day all thanks to JAVA lesson...Today's very sianz and EMO day.... All thanks to JAVA..
Haiz.. Was dragging my feet to school today... At first I really don't feel like coming to school, but in the end, now I in school...
Supposed to meet Yan Hui at Woodlands MRT Station to walk to school together, but, i told him i will be very late because I simply just don't feel like going to suffer from HELL.. In the end, I was late for school.. 9am then I reached class..
6 more weeks to end my HELL journey of the HELL.. Still got a long way to go... With JAVA around, I feel like the coming term break is "so near (6 more weeks) yet so far (because of JAVA)".. Sad ah.. I really lost the motivation and interest to carry on with 6 more weeks of JAVA le.. I just really hope that these 6 weeks can faster finish programming (especially JAVA) and get it over and done with...
Today in class, really very emo.. Faci ask me 2 java questions I was like answering him in a very emo and lan lan way... I don't know if my classmates were shocked by my emo-ness just now from the moment I stepped into the class... Haiz...
Now, got some of my classmates also feel like chabot off.. About 5 people.. Haiz... 2nd break I confirm chabot off le... Buay tahan liao...
Peace.......
Victor Lim
Friday, July 06, 200711:32 AM
Moodless to carry on...Haiz... Today's Database lesson... Don't feel like carry on le... Tempted to pon ten halfway but my team members stopped me from doing that... Haiz... Hui Xian went to TTSH to visit her mother who's suffering from stroke, hope her mum will recovered her health status well.... =)
These days, I have been getting demoralize in school for lesson day by day, especially JAVA PROGRAMMING... No mood to carry on with this fucking I.T modules.. I.T MAKES ME DAMN SICK... Why Why Why??? Why am I studying in this freaking useless polytechnic.. I should have re-taken my O Levels and get to a better polytechnic with better BUSINESS courses with better modules... Now, even if I feel very regretted right now, also makes no use... Already halfway in my 3 years journey in HELL le... Deep inside my heart, I really feel like crying... Haiz..
Well.... I guess... For these few weeks before end of this semester, I must really force myself to do my best as much as possible in order to survive well in this HELL journey.. And the saying goes "saying is always easier than done"... HaizzZzzZzzzZzz....
To all my juniors, I really hope you people will not end up like me, having to suffer 3 years of HELL in this HELL journey... It's really PITA (pain in the ass) for me deep inside my heart... Haiz.... I can't imagine what kind of future will I have with this 3 years of HELL... Haiz...
Victor Lim
10:12 AM
Busy... Busy... and more Busy.....These few weeks can say is pretty busy period... Now, after the batch of 10 Volvo B10 Mk 2s (SBS1711B to SBS1720A), I'm going to concentrate on my PP (Professional Profiling) le.. Come this Wednesday, I'm going to start chionging le... Have to prepare myself for the interview in BRAM (or BRBP for some who called it that way) before I make my trip down there about 2-3 weeks from now.. No time to even work in J8 Cartel for these few weeks..
These few days have been a sickening day for me especially in school, and especially for JAVA's lesson and U.T.. Haiz... How can I really push myself up with this learning attitude man??? 6-7 more weeks of HELL before this Phrase 1 of HELL journey completed... (Still got Phrase 2 for Semester 2 too ah..)
Nowadays, in this working industry and business world, there are more and more youngsters around my age (~16 - 20++) who are into this oncoming hot industry.. Some called it MLM (Multi-level Marketing), some called it NM (Network Marketing).. Already in my class, there are at least 2 of them who are into this hot industry... Yes.. Although some of the people out there are still very skeptical about it, but.......... Haiz.. Already 1 time failure for me (doesn't mean it apply to all people out there ah!!) in VE last time, but now... dunno lehz..... Now, i sense there's some opportunities coming in my way, should I seize it?? or should I not?? Well........ Haiz..
Working in those tough job but less pay, really makes me very sickening... Tried all that before since end of Yr 2004 till now, I shall comment it's really damn tiring.. Especially for those factory jobs with no air con environment one.. Yesterday I was having dinner with Jack at the Mos Burger at Toa Payoh HDB Hub there, saw all these people, and naturally, the feeling of motivation come back to me, but whether do I really want to be part of them as well, that shall all depends on myself ba... Haiz..
Shall stop blogging here for now le ba.. My Database facilitator come back from 1st breakout le.. Now 2nd meeting le.. Shall do my school work le ba.. So sianz all these I.T modules... Freaking ass piece of shit... Will blog when I free.. Cya guys around =) Take care!! Dun be too over-stressed up and over-loaded like me.... Haiz...
Victor Lim
Monday, July 02, 20076:54 AM
FUCK OFF JAVA! OOP!! FUCK OFF Programming!! Enough of HELL suffering!!!GET THE HELL OUT ASS SHIT OF JAVA Object-Orientated Programming (OOP in short)!!! FUCK OFF (3x)!!! FUCK THE SHIT DAMN OFF HELL OUT OF ASS FOR PROGRAMMING, especially OOP!!
This is exactly what i feel right now.. No mood to write about good happening lately.. Haiz.. Sometimes I really feel like crying deep inside my heart.. And somehow I regretted not retaking my O Levels to go for a better poly...
Seriously speaking, I really really don't know what the hack my poly is doing.. Everything also PBL PBL PBL... Eventually, it ended up in this way.. No tutorial no practice no nothing.. Straight away throw us the problem and EXPECT us to solve it everyday with different problem each day.. Makes me really damn stressed up as the day goes by, especially O-O-P and all other PROGRAMMING!!! Haiz.. Everything (presentation, work) also slack slack slack, but problems makes me stress stress stress!!! HELL OFF everything I faced right now.. Don't know how long I can tahan with all these..
=======================================
The comments I got for my last week OOP: (Problem 9)
Absent for the third meeting for unknown reason.
Laptop crashed again and could not do much work.
Grades: D
The comments I got for my Problem 8 OOP:
Absent for the third meeting due to laptop breakdown.
Your laptop was down and you became quite distracted in this lesson.
There is another OOP clinic this coming Wed. Try to attend so as to revise for the previous few lessons.
Grades: C
Chao geng for the previous 2 weeks and this week I don't think I can chao geng for going off at 2nd breakout le.. HaizzZzZzz....
Now that my PP proposal has been approved, I don't know when should I start doing it le.. Prehaps next Wednesday?? As this Wednesday I have to chiong finish for those Volvo Mk 2 photos which I haven gotten it yet because some of the buses are going to reach the end of their life(span) soon in Singapore....
Till then, I shall see how first for the next few days whether my school life in RP is getting better or worst as the days pass by... Haiz......
Victor Lim