11:59 PM
My dear “friend” (I don’t know if you still regard me as one)Well, I could be making my time more productive like preparing myself for tomorrow’s assignment but I think it'd be better for me to seek comments from other people on how I should change you.
I've known you for more than a year already or so. The first impression I got from you wasn’t a really good one. But I chose not to bear negative thoughts of you as I may have problems in me that you're unhappy about too. Your behavior was like those of typical Singaporeans simply jump into conclusion and never analyze the situations deep in mind. Sometimes the way you do it irritates people around you.
One thing I admire you is that you got a very high self esteem (or rather, not sensitive to others). Yes, you don’t seem to bother about what others say about you. But that doesn’t mean that you can simply ignore others and think that you are always right. Judging things by their cover is definitely not the way to go.
Of course, I am appreciative for what you have contributed to the bus enthusiast community. In the z8 forums, you have contributed a lot of pictures and also cameo list for the day. However, please be more sensitive at times. For example, you have the habit of posting your spottings only after the day which the bus has been cameo-ed on. Nevertheless, since you have spotted some rare cameos on certain services, why don’t you snap photos of them when you have a camera? Not only that your efforts in doing such things seemed fertile, but also an act to bring out the jealousy of people who are unable to catch a glimpse of these cameos. Despite the fact that other bus enthusiasts are rather jealous of what you have spotted, they are unwilling to voice out because they try to tolerate your actions since you are the only girl on this forum.
Nevertheless, you have a habit of spoiling the day at times. For example, when jack and us went out together last week, Jack has already agreed that he would treat us. However, it was you who spoilt the day, complaining that the food is so expensive that you cannot afford it. As Jack has already agreed that he would TREAT, you should not have rejected his offer and back out at the last minute. This is so impolite of you. Moreover, you have also spoilt the day by stating that “I doubt the group photo looks nice.” Is this an act of disarray from you after the meal? It is also so uncouth of you to leave us in the lurch without saying anything on that day.
Now, I had enough of you. I don’t care whether you want to have chicken rice or hot milo. It’s none of my business now. You do what you like – throwing tantrums around, go around pissing people off, eat your favourite chicken rice and have hot milo for your meal, posting pictures taken inside Bukit Panjang Interchange and stuff etc. I regret having such a “friend” like you who likes to create criticisms and in the end screw up good friendships. Do a self reflection upon yourself. You shall not come to me and cry for help in future until you have realized your mistakes.
Goodbye to the days that we have forged friendship. Goodbye to the times when we spent great moments together. We shall be friends again only until after you have come round your senses and realized what mistakes you have committed.
This is not all, my fellow friends. I did not create this entry with the intention of personal attack. I just hope that I could help by doing a little to change this attitude in my “friend”. To everyone who is reading this pals. I need advice.
Victor Lim
7:49 PM
What a freaking day..Just now in school, i was feeling very good at first.. Until when i meet my friend and the moment we use our laptop at National Library, i started to be very pissed off with someone called Rachel Lim Zhen Min.. Really lo.. just look at how she post on her blog.. Really want to make me LMAO man.. In the end, we had some cold MSN war (if you notice my nick just now at 7 plus in the evening).. Now things are over for both me and her.. And i also got other things better to do.. Okie.. so for her case, settled.. This website is dedicated to Rachel Lim Zhen Min
Now for my school's case..
It's about 1 of my RP facilitator for Culture module this semester.. Yes, the reason why i can't really do well in last week's culture class mainly because me and wan ning were rather pissed off with him.. Sickening.. He's too demanding.. Just hope that he better improve or during the next survey for him (because we have to do the survey for our facilitator for at least once every term..), if not, i shall see how i will shoot back at him.. Haiz..
Okie.. shall not mentioned much le.. Got to go now le.. cya guys..
Victor Lim
10:47 AM
What A Mad Day Yesterday..This morning and afternoon as usual i was in RP.. Then comes the maths problem statement which in the end i did the excel thing until i feel that i can be sent to IMH le.. Haha.. Stressed until even lunch time also need to rush, 3rd meeting also have to rush.. Blardy hell man.. Then after school i went to National Library @ Bugis to do my blogging which is the previous 2 entries that i posted yesterday.. Do my blogging until about 8:10pm i went to the nearby foodcourt @ Bras Basah Complex and went back home after that..
Today is yet another day in RP with sianz problem statement for cognitive.. den muz read up abt dunno wat penicillin thing, etc etc.. Gonna meet up with Hafiz and Bing He later at WRI after school to pass them something and perhaps to go around and shoot some bus photos..
Hehe.. Yesterday night dunno whether it's considered unlucky or not.. Saw Rachel at Bt Panjang Interchange at around 10:10pm when i was waiting for bus service 700A whereas she just go into the bus service 922 queue after seeing TIB971E on bus service 922 (TIB967T's replacement).. Then i just treated it as if i never see her or i dunno her.. Lolx.. If she still wants to be like that, let her be.. I dun wish to bother much about her anymore.. Sickening..
Victor Lim
Monday, October 30, 20066:37 PM
What A Enjoyable But Tiring Weekends For Me..For the past 2-3 days (Saturday & Sunday), it has been a enjoyable moment for me..
Lets come to Saturday first..
Morning i went back to VE as usual to settle some stuffs (in the Green RP T-Shirt somemore). After which i went to Somerset MRT there for the "Vote Against Littering" duty from 1pm to 3pm.. Upon reaching there, all of those people on duty there would have to either wear on the poster thingy over your body or to just take the so-called voting box to create awareness among the public and to approach them and ask them whether they have any unwanted phamplets (or any leaflet) that they don't want and just throw or "vote" into the "voting" box.. lolx.. Then we just stationed around the covered walkway linking from Specialist Shopping Centre to Somerset MRT Station. Halfway through got 1 Indian guy keep on "diao" us (meaning stare at us) and in the end he just shouted us (which i dunno what exactly he had shouted or scolded us) and we just ignore. After that my area IC, Clinston Tan, just told us if he came to approach us and scold us, he will explain to him everything.. All in all, i find that this CE activity is actually quite fun, although i feel tired after that..
After which i took bus service 106 to proceed to the Old Clementi Bus Interchange to meet up with Bing He. Halfway throughout the journey, at Buona Vista, i saw a B9TL on bus service 196 and i just alight and hope to that B9TL bus, since Bing He told me he gonna reached Clementi a bit late.. So i just take bus service 196 to kill time, as it make a longer trip to Clementi via Dover Rd and AYE..
Upon meeting him, we went around the Old Clementi Interchange (i.e outside the Interchange) and took lots of photos of the buses and also the surrounding area as this is going to be the LAST time we are going to do that before it ever MOVE to the new Clementi Temporary Interchange and the old one being demolished because it has to make way to build the Singapore 4th Air-Conditional Bus Interchange, together with the surrounding building (HDB and shopping malls) which will be undergoing Selective En-Block Scheme.
After which we went on to the nearby bus stops near the Old Interchange and took photo of buses till at night before we went for dinner at Holland Village and went home after that.. Take night shots of bus photos very hard to get a "more perfect photo".. So much so that we even had to sit or crawl down at the concrete floor which is a short distance away from the bus stop..
Now come to the Sunday part..
Morning i went for my Wushu training at Zhenghua CC as usual.. Wan Sin's not coming because of her eye problem, so i have to solo take charge of those naughty little kids.. Lets talk a bit about Wushu first.. Well, for me, i don't believe in scolding them because after all they are young kids (those around 4 to 8 years old) and they should be treated well.. I just don't like to leave a impression to those young kids that i'm a person who is damn (2x) fierce and keep on scolding them.. I will do my best as far as possible to guide them well, show encouragement to them as how my sir (Mr Kuik) treated us (Me, Wan Sin, Darren, etc etc..), smile to them more often, give them my cheerful and happy face, to make them feel that they enjoy themselves over there.. Some of the kids even bully me (in a form of joking and fun way) and i don't even scold them at all.. After all they are just small little cute and adorable bunch of kids. I will tend to put myself into their shoes (as to how they feel, etc..) whenever i coach/teach/guide them, and to try to make the training for them as fun as possible and not being fierce to them.. ;-)
Finished my Wushu training, i went to Bt Panjang Plaza MacDonald to have my lunch and went home to get myself refreshed by bathing and changing my attire before i went out to meet Bing He again at the bus stop near my house.. After that, we went over to the same place as where the 2 of us went on the day before (which is around Clementi Bus Interchange).. Upon reaching Clementi, we saw a unidentified VSO with no advertisment on bus service 7, and guess what, we rush to the wrong direction to chase after that bus for photo.. Haiz.. but never mind, we proceed on to take bus photos around there.. After some time, we felt a bit sianz already, and then we took bus service 154 to Boon Lay Temporary Bus Interchange to take some photos and to take a short break and Bing He also went to Jurong Point to buy batteries for the later trip to Tuas Bus Terminal..
Okie.. After everything's settled at Boon Lay, we took 194 to the bus stop outside Jurong Birdpark and took photos of buses of service 194 and 251.. After for about 1 hour ++, we took 194 back and went for toilet break before we set off towards Tuas Bus Terminal.. We took a service 193 VO2x and surprising the journey took abt 10++ less minutes as expected from Bing He.. Reached Tuas Bus Terminal close to 7pm and we snapped evening and night shot bus photos of bus service 192 and 193 for about an hour before a SBST Bus Captain went over to ask if we wanna continue to stay on taking photos, den we said don't want because next day got school.. So after that we hopped on to a OAC DM Merz on Service 193 back to Boon Lay and the bus captain chatted with us on his bus.. After that the both of us went to Jurong Point MacDonald and have our dinner and also to exchange all the photos that we took on the day and also some additional photos from him.. When we settled our dinner and everything, we took bus service 187 (TIB843S, aircon at least not damn bad..) back home.. I stayed on until i reached my house there whereas he alighted and transfer to bus service 852 at Bt Batok..
Okie.. That's all for my weekends.. Overall a enjoyable but tiring weekends for me.. ;-) Will update with you guys when i'm free.. Cya guys around ;-)
Victor Lim
Wednesday, October 25, 20067:59 PM
Still No Mood to Go Back Home..You may wonder how come when i mentioned that i wanted to go home but then in the end i ended up still in BPJ Plaza MacDonald now blogging away.. This is because currently i don't really have the mood to go home.. Prehaps it's because of my personal problems or obstacles that i currently facing now.. Haiz..
It's time for me to reflect back on myself for a few moment...
These few days i've been doing fine in school, always stepping into RP with a happy mood.. Get to enjoy and interact with my classmates well.. But when it comes to after school hours, that's when all my negative thoughts came about in my mind, NATURALLY.. haiz.. It also happens when i play bball with Hong Sheng yesterday morning @ Bt Panjang CC.. Seriously i really don't know what's really wrong with me nowadays.. Really.. The life path that i'm going through currently is pretty hard for me.. Facing tons and tons of obstacles each and every single day, and i must be able to have the courage to face these obstacles and overcome it, and it's not easy for me..
Some people think that thinking back of our past is good, some people think it's not.. Just don't know why i keep on thinking back of my past NATURALLY in my mind and always reflecting on myself.. In a way it's good because this can allow me to avoid the same mistakes that i did in the past.. In a wat it's bad because this will lead me to depression, and once i feel very depressed, that's goes my cheerful & happy-go-lucky mood of the day.. The time now is 7:45pm when i wrote until this sentence. Somehow currently i still don't really have the mood to go home.. Just now i had a round of bus service 920 trip (TIB638T) from Bt Panjang Bus Interchange back to the starting point when i boarded the bus before i reached BPJ Plaza MacDonald again.. Later i think i just have a ride on service 184 or 700A back home for dinner.. Just now when my dad called me, he asked me whether i'm coming back home for dinner or not and what time i come back home, and even when i reach Bt Panjang early, i will most probably not going home early cos i might wish to blog or to settle my daily assignment before i ever go home..
Okie.. I got to go off to wait for my bus le.. Cya tml in school.. Have a good night ;-)
P.S: my TIB1062Y on service 700 has just came reached Bt Panjang bus interchange from Shenton Way and it's now ready to go off service le.. Just like me when now i'm off service back home le.. For TIB1062Y is back to SMRT Woodlands Bus Depot..
Victor Lim
6:04 PM
What A Wonderful Evening Outing @ Vivocity With My VE Red Lion Team Friends YesterdayAfter this morning's bball with Hong Sheng, i went back home and refresh myself with a hot bath, and i used my laptop to do my blogging stuff and play PS2 game (Need For Speed - Most Wanted) with my brother.. Initially, i was supposed to go with my VE friends to our CEO's house @ The Carribean, but due to something else, the outing to our CEO's house was somehow cancelled, but the the evening's outing to Vivocity was still on.. (but this one is only among my Red Lion team people only)
Upon reaching HarbourFront Bus Interchange with Si Hui, we went over to HarbourFront Mall to meet up with the rest of them (Wei Qiang, Michelle, Zi Ying and Jam) for dinner at the Level 3 foodcourt. After that we went over to Vivocity. Initially it was supposed to be a movie outing, but then we ended up sitting inside Starbucks and we had a 2 hour ++ chatting cum "Zhong Ji Mi Ma" (which means like guessing the number game from 1-99 one) session.. and the joke of the day actually got 2.. One is when Jam's trying to stand up and knock her head onto the Starbucks logo object near the entrance, and the other one will be when they asked me to go and fill up the empty water with plain water but in the end i went over to the place where there's a lot of different types of coffee powder there, and then i just thought that the small jug of transparant liquid is the plain water and pour into the empty bottle. In the end i kena embrassed because it's actually the sugar syrup and people around me all laughing lo.. Make me until i very pai seh.. Lolx.. Overall, we had an enjoyable day at the Starbucks and we set off from Vivocity back to home at about 10:45pm.
Okie.. I will write till here first ba.. I will update with more things when i'm free.. Got to go home from BPJ Plaza MacDonald le.. cya..
Victor Lim
Tuesday, October 24, 20061:48 PM
Feel Quite Uneasy This Morning..Just a while ago, i was playing bball with Hong Sheng @ Bukit Panjang CC. Everything went smoothly for both of us at first.. Until whereby i started to feel a bit uneasy.. Not because of him but is because partly of my mood and my thinking.. He also shared the same feeling as me just now, just that i don't really get to notice him that well.
It was only when we reached home and we MSN and we found out that both of us are in the same state now.. Haiz.. For me, just now when i'm playing, i tend to relate back to the past and makes me feel very weak all in a sudden., prehaps sudden nerve breakdown ba.. When i took bus service 922 and passby Segar area, i tend to feel a sudden nerve breakdown and most likely is the same problem as i had at the bball court @ Bt Panjang CC. Immediately after that, i switch off my MP3 and remove the earpieces off my both ears and try to cool down..
Now, at this moment, i feel at least a bit better after a bath using pretty hot water, and feel at least a bit better after i chatted with him on MSN.. Later see the weather first.. Initially is going to my company CEO's house @ The Carribean for enjoyment, but it might be cancelled. So my backup plan will be to set off to Sentosa to catch the last moment of the Leyland Non-Air-Con Double Deck buses (those found on Green Line) before it's vanish off forever (meaning kena scrapped), since the new Double Deck (DDs) Volvo B7R buses are in Sentosa currently mainly to replace the Leyland DDs. Okie shall end my entry here.. Gonna do my yesterday daily assignment (RJ) cos i haven finish yet.. Audrey Tan first time give us until the next day 2359hrs for the submission deadline. Previously when she taught my previous class (W26L) she never treat us that way. But in return, i find that now she's much more stricter in W16L than the previous semester when i was in W26L in terms of grading.
Victor Lim
Monday, October 23, 20069:48 PM
With regards to my tagboard..After viewing all the comments that are posted on my tagboard, and with all the commotion in my tagboard, i have to come to a final decision whereby:-
1. All posts without your real identity (especially those with "annoymous" and "annoymous2") will be removed from my tagboard
2. All posts which has the intention of causing damn serious arguements (that can led to endless quarrel or even worst) will be removed from my tagboard as well. If you are really that angry or fed-up until you want to write a lot of things to FLOOD my tagboard, PLEASE e-mail me or MSN me instead.
**Peace**
Victor Lim
9:46 PM
A meet up with 1 of our bus mate friends who now serves his NS.As usual, Sunday morning i would go attend the Wushu Training @ Zhenghua CC. As usual, me and Wan Sin have to take charge of a group of naughty kids, train them, guide them, discipline them, etc etc..
Afternoon, i went back home to settle the Canon DSLR Camera uploading stuff and to bath and get changed before i went for meet up with Hafiz to take bus service 190 to town. Upon reaching there, we went down to Orchard MRT Station for meet up with Rachel and we went to Far East Plaza for dinner. We went up and down the Far East Plaza just to search and decide on what to eat for dinner. In the end we choose the Japanese restaurant @ Level 1 and as usual, Rachel still don't want to eat anything for dunno what reason. In the end, she left both me and Hafiz to somewhere else within Far East. After she left us for that moment, the both of us were having our dinner and chatting about our personal life and some bus deployment stuffs (especially when it comes to TIB1245L).
After our dinner, we went to meet up with Rachel and we took TIB660C of bus service 167 to Plaza Singapura to meet up with Jack, who is currently serving his NS. Then Jack brought the 3 of us (me, Hafiz and Rachel) to Starbucks for some coffee session and we chatted a lot especially when it comes to Jack's life during his first few weeks of NS in Pulau Tekong. After that we went out outside intending for some group photos but in the end Rachel left me, Hafiz and Jack for dunno what reason. This is when we happened to be approached by a guy for a Job Market Survey. Then i was the 1st person to be surveyed. In the end, i looked at the survey paper and it seems very very familiar to me. After he finished ask his survey questions and when it comes to the particular (contact) part, i asked him "Don't mind i ask u a question? Are you from Venture Era (VE), at first he said no. In the end, i even saw our company (VE) new product, which is "Buddy", i told him about the "Buddy" he's wearing and eventually i managed to have a short but a nice conversation with him. His name is Gabriel (if i remembered correctly), from Bluevo. Haha.. After that, me, Jack, Hafiz carried on with our pair photo taking, and we went over to the bus stop outside Park's Mall to wait for bus service 190 back home.
Wonderful Sunday that i ever had... ;-)
Victor Lim
8:29 PM
Last Saturday... Both good and bad day..Last Saturday morning and afternoon, indeed i have enjoyed a lot over @ Chinatown taking photos for the photo competition with the theme "Something Old, Something New". I will upload some of the photos next time when i'm free in my blog. In the morning we were having some briefing and teaching stuff by our 2 photographer faciliators, Kenneth Lim & Cavvy Chin at W3, Level 3 Lecture Theatre. Thereafter, we went to a room @ E6 where they would loan out the DSLR (Digital SLR) for each one of us, about 30++ people.
After everything was done in RP, we set off to Chinatown (South Bridge Rd) which would be our meeting point. Upon reaching there, we were given some instructions and off we go to shoot as many photos as we want but in the end we should have at least some photos that are related to the theme. Since Wan Ning was not selected for this photo competition, i have to go with a friend at least, and there i was glad to have Wu Yao as my companion and there i make new friend. Yay!! He's from W16F, quite near to my class, W16L. As i got to know him, he told me that he also know 1 of my current classmates, Jia Jie (Thomas). Both of them came from the same part of China (Shen Zheng, in HYPY) and live in the same hostel if i remembered correctly.
From the starting point, we set off to various small little parts of Chinatown, shoot here shoot there, at times even kena scolded by the uncle and nearly got into fight.. Haha.. :-D After some shooting, at about 12 plus, we went to MacDonald @ Lucky Chinatown to have our lunch. After that we set off again to shoot somemore photos @ Chinatown area before i brought him along to Little India for some photo shooting. As this is his first time in Little India and also first time taking the NEL Train, it would be a good experience for him. ;-)
After all the shooting, we took bus service 145 from Bugis all the way back to our starting point and after that we were given some instructions again and off we go! (which means we are released for the day) Wu Yao would take the school provided bus back to RP (cos he staying in hostel) whereas i took SBS9676S, a Dennis Trident on service 80 to HarbourFront Bus Interchange for toilet break before i took TIB630P of service 188 to IMM to meet up with my family members.
Okie.. The good and fun part is over.. Here comes the bad and moody part..
After we had our dinner at Kopitam inside IMM, my mother decided to bring all of us to buy some clothes for us.. And the worst thing is that she kept on going around, kept on asking us to buy clothes, and this lasted until about close to 10pm when most of the shops are closing at this hour. What makes me really pissed off is that when i asked her to buy a health product which only cost about $100-$200 plus, she said she got not enough money to buy, BUT when it comes to buy clothes like last Saturday, she can kept on spending and spending like got no limit like that.. Think got at least hit 100-200 dollars. WTH man..
During this point of time onwards, I have decided to share my problems with my younger brother, and vice-versa. I got my own problems, he got his own problems. In the end, our problems still link to a common group of people, which is our parents, especially our mother. Haiz.. When he shared with me about his problems, i found that he's actually somehow facing the same kind of problems (or should i say "obstacles" instead) as when i was in my late Sec 4 days in late 2004 to early 2005. Mostly the problems lies with freedom part and some other stuffs also. At least for his case is not as worst as what i faced during my late 2004 - early 2005 days.. In the end i gave my brother some advices, and also i hope that he will be able to successfully went through the obstacles as what i have faced last time, and to be able to fight all the way for his freedom that he is desired for, but of course the freedom don't make him do things which makes him got himself into trouble especially with police. What i'm most worried is his vulgarities that he always used in school. I do hope that as the years pass by, he will be able to change himself for the better, just like me last time.
Okie.. I shall end this entry here.. This is actually dated back to last Saturday but in the end i was too tired to blog this entry.
Victor Lim
Thursday, October 19, 20068:03 PM
Multi-tasking..Today i wish to talk about multi-tasking.. Nowadays, we people have our own multi-tasking activities. For me it will be quite a number, namely (1) school, (2) martial arts, (3) basketball, and (4) VE, as what my friend Rachel has mentioned in my tagboard. I just can't understand why some people underestimated our limits. Some people especially those older generations ones, always think that we people now just only have to study and don't do other stuffs at the same time. More often than not, they probably will think that we people could not handle all the stress and a lot of tasks at the same time.. WTH.. Some people out there are just too stubborn, and always have the mindset of "EVERYTHING THEY ARE RIGHT AND WE ARE WRONG".. I find that by joining VE actually allow me to have more kind of exposure (especially negative ones) and learn how to handle these kind of situations, which is very good for me.. I believe nowadays we should be given a chance to maximise our potential and we should be able to handle multi-tasking stuffs.. Take it as a challenge for yourself, you will never know how far you can reach. Just do everything to your best and i believe you will get the results you wish to achieve, regardless of any stuffs that you do (of course must be a good stuff).
Next... I will like to talk about the latest news that happened on a guy who commit suicide at Chinese Garden MRT Station which my parents just told me about it when they bought the evening chinese newspaper. The reason for such thing is because he couldn't cope with his outstanding bill expenses and the fact that he was retrenched from his previous job. His wife also only earning about $500++ a month and have to cover all the expenses for the whole family with 2 childrens (if not wrong is 2 children) according to the newspaper. After listening to my parents telling me about this latest and sad news, i feel very pity and sad for them. Maybe he don't know that he can seek help from his RC area, that's why lead to such a sad ending.. Can you imagine if you were in anyone of the family member's shoes? It's really really very bad.. Haiz.. My parents told me and my brother that we should be contented of what we are having now.. From this, it makes me to think of my purpose of joining VE. The core reason why i joined VE is because i want to take up new challenges, but then until now i find that i'm slacking too much, didn't really put in much effort for what i really want. YES, in VE, some people may find their initial stage of their journey very easy, some may find it really deem hard, just like me.. Everytime when i see those poly/JC year 1 or even some who still Sec 4/5s doing O Levels that are already a MM (Marketing Manager), it makes me reflect back on myself, on my progress in everything so far, be in VE or other stuffs such as martial arts.. and YES, of course there are other reasons why i joined VE, 1 of which is because of not being dependent on my parents for money, and in future, i will be able to support my parents and give them an early retirement.
Before i end this blog entry, i will like to say that multi-tasking is NOT impossible for anyone of us here. As long we are able to manage our time well can already. Don't ever limit our expectations, dreams, and potentials just because of our parents. We must really know what we really want to achieve and NOT letting them to control over your dreams and potentials.. Till then, i shall end this blog entry here..
Victor Lim
Wednesday, October 18, 200611:26 PM
Should I Or Should I Not Join Basketball???At this hour, i'm still at BPJ Plaza Macdonald, don't wish to go back home that early after my martial arts training as my mood doesn't seem to be good now.. Haiz.. I got 2 things which i wish to mention it here.. First is with regards to whether i should really join the school basketball IG/team and second is with regards to my previous class, W26L..
Now here comes the first thing. Personally, i really feel that i am too weak and not fit to be in the school team.. I got a few reasons behind it. First is because of my damn lousy ass stamina.. Really.. Still call myself a guy when i can't even tahan for at least 4 half-court matches.. All my other friends are able to tahan for quite a long time except me.. I really find myself such a weakling asshole man.. Second is because of my stiff body/shoulder which caused me to encounter a lot of difficulties not only for basketball but also on other sports such as swimming and martial arts. Haiz.. Everytime when my friends ask me to relax my body, i am not able to do so.. What a failure am I.. Yesterday when i played basketball with Hong Sheng, he's the one that really encourage me a lot to learn more when i really join the school team/IG with him because he's also finding at least a companion to join basketball with him.. Just now on MSN i asked Sheryl for the basketball training schedule for guys then she said it's on Monday, Wednesday & Friday. Hmm i will discuss it with Hong Sheng tomorrow first then i will further make a final decision as to whether to join the school team or not..
Secondly it's regarding to my previous class, W26L.. This one i really want to haiz... Really.. Yes, we all changed to our new class le.. But then we must also remembered that we should socialize with our new classmates and try to have lunch with them and make use of this time to share what we wish to share just like how we did for W26L during the first few weeks.. Some people i find that they just really cannot understand my feelings well.. As i already told you guys, I SAID THAT W16L IS BETTER THAN W26L, DOESN'T MEAN THAT W26L NO GOOD, USELESS, ALL BAD PEOPLE, etc etc etc, whatever bad or negative comments that you all assume.. Really.. you guys sounded as if i'm very bad, talk or comment anything negative about W26L.. I REALLY DIDN'T MEAN THAT.. Some people just take this too seriously to their heart and then anyhow spread negative around..
After writing all these things, i do really hope that you people (W16L) can be more undertsand towards me better. Haiz.. Till then i end my entry here and i should catch my last bus from Bt Panjang Plaza to my house at Pending Rd..
Victor Lim
Tuesday, October 17, 200610:56 PM
What A Bad Day For Me.. Haiz...Today is my first time marking my self-evaluation really down ever since the 1st day of the 1st semester. I onli mark myself 1 part of all the questions as "neutral" and the rest i put "not well". Really.. I contributed the least and just only about 1 point or 2. That's all.. Seriously i don't know what has happened to me besides being very tired everyday, regardless of whether i have my night activities or not.. I think this has become my daily habit and it's natural for me to feel tired at any time of the day especially noon and afternoon.
Until now i find that i still have not overcome my weaknesses, i.e, can't think of much things, therefore can't really contributes well to my team during the discussion. Haiz.. I really hope that i will be able to improve within the next few days or weeks and especially with my new class, i find that i will be able to improve much more better as during the team discussion, our class people seem to be serious about it and now sit down there and play games without any work being done, as if they knows everything like that.. Of course, i don't day that my previous class is bad. The good thing is that my previous class has the most extreme of everything.. From hardworking & serious to slackers & only know how to play game & talk big, etc etc etc...
Overall, i feel that i should not even deserve a "C" for today's lesson because of my damn lousy ass shit performance.. and i really wish to apologise to all my teammates especially Hong Sheng for being such a ass teammate which bullshit performance.. Really sorry to all of you.. Hong Sheng.. Iqa.. Ahkbar.. Agnes.. Irna.. I really feel damn bad today and i think it makes no differences whether i'm really inside this team or not.. Haiz..
Just now i went down to Petir basketball with Hong Sheng and indeed it was quite a pretty nice one.. I managed to successfully learn something that i previously used to being unable to do, which i find that at least i have a slight improvement. He was asking me just now whether i wish to accompany him and join the school team.. I said that i must see whether am i really fit or suitable to be part of the school team. As everyone here should know, my fitness level is actually not very good, stamina sux to the core, play a few matches and i feel tired so easily.. What a weak guy am I.. Haiz.. But then I'm so fortunate to have a encouraging friend like him to encourage me to train more and say that when i join the school team, the coach will be able to train us more better.. The thing is whether i can be able to take this challenge or not.. Haiz.. My body is so damn stiff man.. Because of this damn weakness, i encounter a lot of difficulties in a lot of areas, such as basketball, swimming and martial arts.. Seriously i also don't know whether 1 fine day i will be able to overcome such weaknesses, or should i say obstacles.. Haiz.. I shall end my entry here for now.. I still have my RJ which i haven finish yet and somemore tomorrow got Enterprise UT.. Haiz.. Okie.. Cya guys around ;-) Take care wohz.. The World is getting more and more sick.. Drink more waters ya ;-)
Victor Lim
3:14 PM
Again, A Tiring Day For Me..This whole day till now i was like feeling so damn tired.. Last Sunday went out with 2 of my ex-poly classmates and i reached home at about 10 plus at night, slept as usual at about 12 plus.. Yesterday went to my company's Quarterly Seminar at Conrad Hotel near Suntec also until pretty late. If the seminar i stay throughout the night i think i would probably reached home at least after 1am. I reached home yesterday night at about 11pm, feeling very tired and just slept with my former attire on until the next day morning.
Yesterday in class, i fall asleep again during Audrey Tan's 6P.. Then she said i was on my la-la land, and then my classmates added on saying that i'm on "ning-ning" land instead.. Haha.. My classmates anyhow say things about me and Wan Ning again.. Everyday without fail they will come out with new things to say about us.. haha...
Then today's class also another tiring one for me. I wasn't able to concentrate well in class and i find out that i did not put in much effort for today's problem. All the while most of the stuffs are done by Hong Sheng and some of which is done by my other teammates, i.e, Ahkbar, Irna, Agnes and Iqa. I think i shall really deserve a tight slap for myself. Tomorrow is Enterprise UT, and i don't know whether i can make it through the UT or not.. Haiz.. Till then, i shall end my entry here.. Will update again when i have the feeling to blog and of course not blog at home because i will lost the feeling of blogging and will feel very frustrated easily especially by my parents.
Victor Lim
Saturday, October 14, 200611:09 PM
Long Time Never Play Basketball le..It's has been a long time ever since i last played basketball (bball) especially at Blk 623 aka 6-head.. Had a good start of the day by playing bball with zhi wei, yan xiang they all.. Though it's a tiring morning for me but i find that worth it.. I hope that i will be able to make myself free every Saturday morning so that i can play bball with them.. Really.. those times when i was at 6-head with them.. Haiz.. At least today my skills seem to improve by a bit.. Quite a good start for me to train up to be more better. Okie i gonna do my own stuff le.. Got time i will blog again.. Cya guys around ;-)
Victor Lim
Friday, October 13, 200612:10 AM
Frustrated and Feeling Down At The Same Time..Why frustrated? For a simple freaking reason. (Sorry if i use any word that seem offensive whenever my volcano is going to burst) This is because whenever i'm feeling down, and have the feeling of writing my blog, i HATE my family members to interupt or disturb me. Keep on nagging until it spoil my mood of writing blog.. Whatsmore, i'm not as fortunate as some of you people who get to have the privilege of having a bedroom of your own.. Can get to do things with minimum chance that your parents keep on nagging about the same usual stuffs (like "dun sleep too late" etc etc).
I can tell you although i may seem to be a happy and cheerful person in your eyes, but that was only for when i'm NOT at home.. YES, i can understand that my familiy members do care for me, but than sometimes i also can't stand the freaking hell vulgarities from my brother.. No matter how hard i tried to discipline him, but in the end still no use. Everyday keep on complaining to me about his school sux (which happened to be my former Primary School). Then i also like very sianz.. Once the clock reaches 10 plus, my brother will automatically "CHASE" me out because he wants to sleep. There goes the end of my privacy.. Parents nagging, keep on disturbing me, are common sights at my house living room. Okie i got to stop saying all these le.. Main thing is actually not these..
The main thing i wish to talk about is about my hobby. Really, i miss those times when i can just happily went to the basketball court @ Blk 623 and play basketball (bball) with Zhi Wei they all.. Now, because of my other commitments that i have, i will have much more lesser time for bball le.. In my mind i'm thinking that maybe i will make it a point that every Saturday morning i will go there and play, and also to slowly train up my bball skills (which is now damn lousy and rusty). I guess it's mainly because of my martial arts training and my business in Venture Era (VE) that affects my bball hobby. I guess it's time for me to do some time management and planning as to try to be able to balance my sports hobby (bball) well.. I should at least set aside 1 morning per week for such activity.
Another thing i wish to talk about is my performance in this new semester in RP (W16L) so far. This one very negative de.. So far all i got were all Bs and Cs.. The comment (given by our faciliators) that strikes me the most will be the one by my Cognitive faciliator, Miss/Mrs Audrey Tan. No doubt, she also faciliated my previous class in the previous semester also, W26L.. Last time i used to get all straight Bs from her, with the exception of 1 particular RJ when i write full of craps about my friend's chalet at Downtown East. Now, this is the comment which strikes me the most among all:
"I have to stress again that the content of the RJ matters more than the length! Victor, you have to recognise the fact that it is not others duty to get you to speak up! It is your own! While it would be good to have encouraging teammates, you should not expect others to do this for you all the time. More importantly, you have to recognise how, by keeping quiet, you are compromising on your own learning."
YES, i really have to admit that i'm very very weak in terms of my generating ideas and the level of understanding about a certain topics especiallt those very tough ones like Sciences. It's because of this factor that makes me being so quiet during the team discussions. Well, i should do my best to improve and brush up on my weakness. One fine day i shall be able to overcome this weakness, have faith in myself that i will be able to make it one fine day.
I think it's time for me to get some maple-ing or do some other stuffs before i go off to bed. Tomorrow shall be a brand new day for me, and of course that will include my classmates who like to always mentioned about me and Wan Ning ;-p haha.. Okie guys & gals take care wohz ;-) Will update again when i'm free or when i feel like blogging.. Cya ;-)
Victor Lim
Thursday, October 12, 20066:43 AM
Clarifying Doubts On My TagboardFrom what i saw on my tagboard, i noticed that some of you may have some doubts especially with regards to Network Marketing, and from this blog entry, i hope to be able to clear some doubts that you may have on me.
First one will be the priority. Some of my friends thought that after i started to do this trade, my studies will not be my main priority. Let me say this once more very clear. No matter what, i will still place my studies as my main priority, and follow by some other things like my hobby, interest, and the trade that i'm doing currently at the moment. Yes, just because i slept during the 6P for Maths module (Friday, 6th October 2006) doesn't mean that it's because of Network Marketing.
Let me share with you all my this (bad) habit. Now almost everyday (unless i'm really damn tired), it's a culture for myself to sleep at least after 11:30pm or midnight because i'm somehow get used to sleeping very late since 1 or 2 years ago. Moreover, these few days i will not be going back to my company that often because i have to be involved in martial arts training and organizing committee for this coming Wushu Holiday workshop in December 2006.
Second one (which is the last one) will be more for my previous classmates of W26L. As you can see, what i mentioned about my new class (W16L) better than my previous class (W26L) is only on a general scale, and some of you here even said that the last week of school when i cried in class was a fake one. Let me say this clearly, that it's only on a GENERAL scale basis. Doesn't mean that when i say this sentense means that you all are bad. Come on guys & gals of ex-W26L, i still have the heart for you all here, dun worry. ;-) It's just that at times i will be with my new classmates as i will get these chances to understand my new classmates well.
With that i'm going to end my entry here, but before that, let me share this (dunno whether good or bad for you) news. This morning (for those who took 187, 960, 963, etc, and passed by Woodlands Avenue 3, near the stadium there), there's an accident involved between a private bus (if remembered correctly is AZ Bus Co.) and a private vehicle. When i took TIB808U of Service 960 to Woodlands Regional Interchange from my house, i saw this accident with my own eyes when it passed by Woodlands Ave 3 and if not wrong, the bus registration number is PZ1917S. This evening a Mediacorp Chinese Radio Station got announced. I'm not so sure about the newspaper and other English channels like Channel News Asia & Channel 5.
Okie.. That's all for now... Will have more updates when i'm free.
Victor Lim
Tuesday, October 10, 20061:40 AM
Long time no update-ing le..It has been a very long time ever since i last blogged. Recently, i just changed my blogskin and then now i think i gonna change my blogskin again due to the fact that a lot of my friends find it troublesome and request me to change. I will change my blogskin ASAP. ;-)
Okie.. Talking about school, it has been a good day ever since i entered my new class, W16L. I must say that my new classmates are in general more better than my previous (no offences to my previous semester classmates, W16L), in a sense that i don't really see any slackers who only know how to play CS, DOTA, etc when it's supposed to be researching and powerpoint time.. It's good and fun to make more new friends especially with this "change class per semester" kind of thing by RP management. Although my new classmates are generally hardworking during discussions and breakouts, but they do know when to joke and talk cock sing song in class, which i don't really have that kind of feeling in my previous class. (except people like Yan Hui & Albert and a few more..)
Overall, i find that my new classmates are actually pretty interactable, just that until now, i still don't get to socialize around with all of my W16L mates because some of them i haven same team with them before.
A good thing in my new class. At least i got quite a few in my class who also stay in my area or near my area, like Yin Min, Wan Ning and Hong Sheng. My previous class i think no one even stay near my area, mostly in places like Hougang & Tampines.
Okie.. Finish school stuff now talk about VE..
So far in VE, my progress is still not that much at this point of time. I admit that i am actually pretty slack, and at times i do feel very down and required a break for me.. but after my upline and my BM Mr Shun Jie talked to me, i started to at least progress bit by bit.. Whatsmore, this coming Monday will be our company Quarterly seminiar held @ Conrad Hotel. I just hope that i can progress as much as i can towards this coming seminar and this kind of seminiar i'm going to attend for the 2nd time. With a lot of them in VE who give me all their fullest support, i believe i also don't want to disappoint them. So all the more I should start to move on and not just staying here do nothing and expect results to come by my side..
Okie.. Finish VE stuff le now talk about the hazy weather which happened for the past few days..
A few days back actually the haze PSI level can reached as high as 150.. somemore is at night, 9pm if i'm not wrong, and on the same day (which i forgot which date le..) the PSI went as high as 130 at 10am. To all fellow people out there, do take care of your health well (i.e drink more water, don't exposed to outdoor stuffs too much, etc...). As of now, thank god that the hazy weather is OVER! BUT BUT BUT.. drink water wise we still have to continue to drink more water.. Stay healthy!~ And try not to sleep as late as me until during class i also dare to sleep in front of my Maths faciliator.. hahaha.. during the 6P somemore.. :-P
Okie.. It's already 2am and i also feel very sleepy. Will update when i have the time, and of course the blogskin too which i'm going to change due to majority's opinions. Cya guys around ;-) Take care wohz ;-)
Victor Lim