5:25 AM
FYP Nightmare is coming upEspecially when I.T is not our main interest and we have to do it as if I.T is our main interest instead of Business.
I guess, with this FYP idea that RP has set for me, this makes me even have more motivation to be even more hungry to learn more about Business & get rid of I.T (in particularly and especially, programming) in my mind.
And with this, I shall really set aside a goal for my year 3 (actual) business studies (no more I.T studies lo! rejoice!) that I shall score at least 70% "A" for daily grades and at least 60% "B" for UT grades. I really want to make use of this opportunity to push up my GPA... I want to get in to a school with offers further business (and NO I.T programming involved!) studies.. Yea I can say that I have 100% fully regretted entering into RP (although this is NEVER my first choice), just because I get a lousy L1R4 score of 23 (after deduction of 2 CCA points), I can say that I have regretted not heading Boon Hoe's advice, i.e, to retake my O level and get a much more L1R4, but.... what's the point taking over it now? 2 years after O level has already over le.. I guess, I shall just have to spend 1 more well and I can jollywell get out of Republic Polytechnic. Heard that?!? It's REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC.. You can just ask any RP students whether they chose RP as their 1st choice. More than 80% they would say a big "N-O NO". Seriously, ...
"NO ONE IN THE RIGHT MIND, I repeat, RIGHT MIND, WOULD CHOOSE RP as their FIRST choice!"
Pardon me for being so angry and fed-up. To the extent I even manage to convince 1 of my bus enthusiast friend & his friend, never to choose RP and REGRET like me..
Now early in the morning I have to analyze all the bloody proposals approved for our FYP Nightmare "Episode 1, i.e, semester 1". I can't imagine for the next few months onwards when my Year 3 period starts, I would see WHITE hairs growing from me, drinking Red-Bull energy drink EVERY NIGHT, my panda eyes getting even more obvious, falling sick every week due to the overloading stress and less than 3 hours of sleep every night... Imagine.. I may have to sleep at 2am every night and wake up at 5am every morning to rush this **** FYP...
I don't want this negative effects to neglect my relationship with God, because I really believe on what God has provided me the path (in this case, it should be my FYP Nightmare path), to really see breakthroughs during the midst of the nightmare period of FYP. I don't want to be a backslided, just because I spend too much time on this FYP and neglected God as my no. 1 priority.
Already for now, I have not been spending my quiet time when the nightmare hasn't even arrived yet. What happens when the actual nightmare arrives? Haiz...
Victor Lim