12:03 AM
Feel very heartpain!! =( Very teary =(Just a while ago, i accompanied my parents to visit my grandma (mum's side). It has been quite a long time since my last visit to my geandma's house. When i was there, greeting my grandma, she seem to be forgotten about me, which i feel that it's very sad, but when my mum tried to recall my grandma, then she slowly can remembered, and even ask for my brother whether how come he never come.
After that stayed down there for a while, and i realised that her condition state wasn't that normal.. She seem to have a lot of difficulties consuming food (don't know whether is it her appetite problem or what), cough quite badly, and also having a lot of phlegm on her throat. Her face appearance also doesn't seem to be okay.. When i see all these, i really feel very very sad for her, very worried about her health conditions, as my parents told me that she just kena discharged from hospital.. Haiz.. I feel so heartpain when i see her having to suffer a lot a lot.. Sobx.. At that point of time I was very teary, but i managed to resist my tears from dropping out.. Haiz..
Immediately after that, i sms 1 of my most trusted and favourite BM in VE about it, seeking the best solution from him, and i even willing to fork out some of my savings to help her.. At least a bit.. I really really want to show them how sincere i really want to help my grandma.. Haiz.. Now have to wait for him to reply me through sms, and hopefully, by tomorrow or sunday, i can just make a trip down back to the office and get (buy) the necessary things for my grandma..
**Really need a god blessing to my grandma, hope that her state of health condition getting better as the day goes by..** even if she really leave the world so fast (touchwood!!), i also do really hope that she can just leave very peacefully without having to suffer so much.. **getting more and more teary but no matter what, i still have to STAND STRONG and continue to live on!! I cannot let all these unhappy things to affect my goals that i have set for myself!! **
With that, i will end my blogging for today..
**peace** =(
Victor Lim