4:02 PM
Long time no update..These few days i have been busying with my own stuffs, that's why i never update my blog till now.. 2 major stuffs happening with 1 hidden stuff which i can't tell everyone here (regarding last Saturday's outing with our 'VIP"), but truly, last Saturday, i really enjoyed my day with some of my bus enthusiast friends at Suntec and eventually we ended up at Jurong Point to have our dinner before we "off service" back home..
Last Sunday marks the beginning of Service 966 amendment to provide a direct and fast access to Eunos and Marine Parade for Bukit Panjang residents. That also indirectly marks the beginning of the added frequency time for this Service as SMRTB is not willing to add any bus.. They even reduced 1 bus if i'm not wrong.. -_-" Okay enough said of this.. (sry i dun have the mood to talk even further..)
These few days, i don't know what exactly has happened to me.. I keep on thinking about what happened to me after i leave this human world.. Keep on thinking and it makes me lose concentration of the things i do and of course my mood.. Somemore today's cognitive problem the worksheet got 1 question keep on talking about killing.. I really hate those people who kill innocent lives of we the fellow human being, and some, of course, are caused by natural disasters which can't be helped.. Haiz.. Really, i cannot afford to imagine what will happen to me after my death.. Haiz.. How well if we the human beings can live forever.. Really, i hate to leave this world which we can afford to enjoy a lot of things.. Sometimes, i just think that humans are like robots, just that humans tend to be more flexible while robots tend to be more rigid.. Haiz.. What exactly can we do when we leave this world 1 fine day? Everyone will die eventually, but is a matter of time and period.. Sometimes people are asking whether they are afraid or scared of death, but for my case, i guess i really do afraid and scared a lot such that it even creates a lot of fear within myself.. Haiz.. Sometimes i just do really thinking why we have only about 100 years to live in this world and not more?? I really feel very heart pain whenever i think of those poor people living in 3rd world country.. Imagine if they were really born to suffer in this world.. How can this be?!? It SHOULDN'T be that way!!! ARGH!!! Haiz... Sometimes i do really wonder will i proceed to another world when we leave this world.. Really feel like crying after i finish this blog entry but i will try my best not to because all the way i am trying to control my emotions, my feelings.. Sometimes, i just couldn't put aside all these stuffs when it comes to work or study.. Maybe i am just having too many doubts about this but it really can't be helped, just because i am too emotional perhaps? Haiz.. My faciliator just talked about abortion.. Abortion.. Really it's a form of cruel act in my opinion.. Let me ask them a question, i.e, why they don't want to give that particular baby a chance to born in this world? WHY WHY WHY??? I just cannot understand and i just cannot ACCEPT the fact that they actually abort their babies!!! ARGH!!! Haiz.. :-(
At times, when i do my self reflection, i always ask myself whether i have really make full use of my 18 years of life from baby when i stayed in Serangoon.. Really, we only have 1 chance to live in this world, and we really ought to cherish our precious and only live a lot a lot, and not to waste this only chance to live in this world.. Sometimes, i just do wondering whether should i really be born in this reality world.. Haiz.. Before i end this blog entry, i really do wish to share a song lyrics with all of you here which i feel that it's really meaningful, although this song is actually pretty old.. but old song = more and deeper memories behind it..
Forever Young - Alphaville
Let's dance in style
Let's dance for a while
Heaven can wait
We're only watching the skies
Hoping for the best
But expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not
Let us die young or let us live forever
We don't have the power
But we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit
Life is a short trip
The music's for the sad men
Can you imagine when this race is wrong
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders
We're getting in tune
The music's played by the madmen
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
Some are like water
Some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later
They all will be gone
Why don't they stay young
It's so hard to get old without a cause
I don't want to perish like a fading horse
Youth's like diamonds in the sun
And diamonds are forever
So many adventures couldn't happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams swinging out of the blue
We'll let them come true
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever and ever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever
Forever young
Victor Lim