Moreover, this coming week my FYP team is going to chiong all the way liao.. (Deadline for submission is 5th Jan 2009), and I promised Raymond's friends (Brian, Bing Xun, etc...) about DOTA outing this coming week (most likely is either Thursday afternoon or Friday then I can make it), plus lots of other stuffs to do...

Last time, I used to complain that I got nothing to do and my life is so sianz full of boredom... Now? It's 180 degrees/opposite way round, i.e., a lot of things to do and my life is full of challenges, thrilling journey, excitment, a lot a lot more to describe it..

Reflecting on my spiritual life, I find that I have not done well in many areas, and at times I find that I have screwed myself up especially during serving in Usher Ministry.. Maybe I should have a seperate post about Thanksgiving also because speaking of which, I got quite a number of people who I really wanna thank them for, even for those who were not in my CG..

At times, I feel so discouraged and disheartened because of certain things that happened to me directly and indirectly, and I feel so disappointed about certain areas in my life, especially on the spiritual level.. 

This year has been a exciting yet challenging one for me.. Having to deal with lots of stuffs and problems is not an easy job.. I believe that this is what God wants me to go through all these tough times and eventually to mould me into a better person, but at times, I keep disappointing God, I negliect my everything with God, and I treat things too lightly especially when it's God's work..

As time goes by, I get more (and perhaps higher level also?) responsibilities, in CG and in Usher Ministry, and at times, I just get too drained out especially in Usher Ministry.. Every Sunday morning (except on the week that I am not on duty), I gotta take Service 966 1st bus early in the morning and transfer to 2 more buses and reach Expo by 7:30am, then after that help out in preparation before service starts, and when service starts, that's when I feel stressed the most (whenever I am doing acute point and/or taking care of a zone, especially the zone one). When I see the congregation Praising and Worshipping God, I don't usually get to do so too whenever I am doing the zone part.. (Okay la... Maybe during later part of worship still got some time..) Usually it's quite okay for me because I have been getting used to this style, but at times when I felt very down on the particular week (like 1-2 weeks back), I would just broke down and cry out to God.. (when I say "cry" in this post over here, I literally mean crying and weeping with tears..)

Haiz... These few days, I just have too much thoughts that every single night, I can't sleep well and early.. Nowadays if you notice, 2-3am I may still be online (and not in Idle mode for those who have MSN Plus installed on your Windows Live Messenger) and perhaps either blogging away or stonning away or facebook here and there and etc etc...

Okay I think I shall stop here for now... Next day still got Usher duty.. Need to wake up super early... Nite guys..