11:48 PM
My 1st breakthrough with my parents...Yesterday night was the breakthrough with my parents as mentioned in my blog...
I was very nervous just a few minutes before the breakthrough time, and I even asked my sister to accompany me out through MSN.. So 2-3 minutes later both of us went out to living room and I started to speak to my parents... Reason being asking my sister out is because some words I don't really feeling comfortable telling them in chinese, although I know what is the chinese word for it.
The moment I mentioned the word "religion", my parents were already !@#$%^&*() about it liao, and when I mentioned the word "christian", my parents !@#$%^&*() even more... All the way from there, I was really speechless all of a sudden and I kept quiet throughout the breakthrough, tears keep dropping down my eyes, and all I can do is to nod my head (not very obvious when I nod) when they asked me questions. Let's see what they (especially my mum) mentioned to me yesterday night:
No. 1: MUST follow the traditions of our ancestors, buddhist means buddhist...
My views: Prehaps they are really those extremes of "stick to the rule" type of person liao... In chinese I called it 死板板.. Very reluctant to accept changes.
No. 2: If you (which is me) really become a Christian (i.e after baptism), we (my parents) would NOT accept me as part of the family...
My views: Well, I guess all they need is more TIME to understand it and being open to such issues, instead of having this skeptical mindset and wanting me to get out of the house if I really become a Christian...
No. 3: You (which is me) were being brought up by Godness of Mercy, and we (my parents) have already made you the god son of Godness of Mercy since young because we faced a lot of difficulties in bringing you up till now. How can you just give up on being the god son of Godness of Mercy? How would you feel if you were Godness of Mercy instead?
My views: Yea... No doubt this is the fact, but still, I really faced a lot of difficulties for myself during my secondary school and 1st 3 semester of my poly life, and in the end, even when I changed, I'm still feel as bad as before, as I don't really believe in Buddhist... All I did in the past in temples is just to either place my both hands together and move up and down, or hold the joss stick and shake a bit up and down, without any meaning to it.. It's until when I enter into the world of Jesus Christ, that the GOD really helps me a lot, give me a lot of blessing and spiritual support, and when I was being welcome in the cell group by Raymond, I feel the first blessing. From there, I make quite a number of friends there, and we worship, pray, fellowship and have fun time together... Being with my cell group members I feel that it's really a joy..
Side track a bit: Of course I still won't forget my friends outside of my cell group, especially all my bus enthusiast friends and my schoolmates, as what I have told Jack just now in the MSN conversation. The things which I really sacrifices is the amount of time that is spent on going around whole Singapore and snapping bus photos like nobody's business.. I sacrifice it because of wanting to put GOD as my top priority above everything, and also because I really want to do spent my precious time doing something which is worth the while.. Every Saturday I try my best to come for the fellowship and outings with my cell group friends, and weekly rotate for Saturday evening/Sunday morning church service at Expo Hall 8.. Reason for rotate is because I'm trying to compromise and give some time to Wushu training. Sunday morning one is more to assist my coach in teaching and guiding the young little kids to learn Wushu, and you can ask anyone of them about how I guided them with patiences, care and concern, compassionate, kindness, and forgiveness. Prehaps some people here may think that I'm too kind liao, especially my Secondary school friends, but well, this is just the NATURAL side of me... ^_^
Okay back to topic, I guess the rest shall leave it for you guys to talk to me and find out more... I won't say anything much here for now...
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I really want to thank GOD for really giving me the boldness and courage to breakthrough with my parents about it, and also to all my friends (especially my cell group friends and some of my bus enthusiast friends) who pray for me, who gave me advices and encouragement. Although I suffered quite a lot for this 1st time breakthrough, but nevertheless, I will still NOT stop believing in GOD, attending church service, etc etc..
"Victor, there is more and more exciting challenges awaiting for me to go and face it, you really need to EXPERIENCE and FEEL it, no matter how tough the challenges can be. GO VICTOR! I believe you can DO it!"
Victor Lim