11:11 AM
Very unusual of me today...Chatted with Jack on the phone yesterday night.... Really makes me think even further, both in a positive and negative way.. Tears went down my eyes yesterday when on the phone with emo songs as usual...
Initially I was supposed to go for night training (TKD) yesterday, but I told Darren I need to settle a lot of stuff, especially my PP module. Haiz..... In the end, I did nothing yesterday because I really got no mood to do it...
I really need a BREAK off!!!
And for goodness sake, my younger brother will always be my victim whenever I feel very frustrated and moody, because I will always verge my anger on him.... Scold him, shouted at him, for even small minor reason.... If not, personal belongings around me (i.e my desk/table) will also be the victim... You will see my handphone, wallets and my MP3 player flying around my bed (because I will always aim towards my bed and use full force and throw there...). Worst come to worst, I will slam my bedroom damn bloody hard until my parents heard it and came to my bedroom and start to scold people le (particularly my brother, because I always blame my brother for making me feel even more frustrated)... Haiz.... I wonder when will this kind of thing stop... And it's about 10pm to 11pm that time that I slam the door with full force damn hard..
This morning, I was rather very emo and moody inside the bus and I really ji tao like got no mood to snap photos of buses after catching the SMRT Premium services 530 and 531 at Shenton Way....It's not the usual Wednesday morning where I happily went out to snap photos around.. Took service 186 down since it came first and transfer to service 153 DD later at Whitley Rd. I even dropped my wallet 2 times while I was emo-ing and fall asleep, closest to the driver's seat. Upon reaching Hougang Central Interchange, I sat down there for a while to calm myself down a bit, went to the Gents and after that took the same Service 153 bus down to Heartland Mall KFC to settle lunch and blogging right now... Haiz...
I just wish to hope later on in the afternoon and night at least I feel emotionally better a bit...
Come to PP ah, seriously I don't know how long more I still want to delay... (okay la.. not really want to delay but due to the stressful stuffs happening around....) Once I got the motivation to chiong my PP, I will faster do so... And for goodness sake I have not even wrote a formal e-mail to SBS Transit HQ (aka ComfortDelgro or BRAM) to request for interview..
Ahhh... Really damn very super duper extremely HARD HARD life for me ah..... Haiz.... 1 fine day I may just...........................................
Victor Lim