3:54 AM
I WANT TO STEP OUT OF SINGAPORE!!Sorry ppl.. These few days i no mood to talk about event all these things.. Will post it when my mood is up..
Now time is 3:55am on my laptop.. Later on i still have Wushu training where i have to teach those kids again.. And now i still typing my keyboard in front of my screen..
Chatting with 1 of my junior, Wei Chuen, on MSN.. until now.. Seriously.. These few days i really can't sleep well.. Don't know why.. Probably i suffered from isnomia? Who knows.. Haiz..
Was chatting until the overseas part.. And my mood, being so damn bad now, and my spirit is like adding kerosene to the fire.. Damn it.. For the past 18 - 19 years i have been staying all along in Singapore, NEVER even step out of Singapore BEFORE!! Don't count all the offshore islands in Singapore.. What the fuck is this? Where's my FREEDOM?!! I WANT MY FREEDOM?!! Even my sister.. Since Sec 1, she was allowed to go for the Malacca field trip in Malaysia.. Why not me?!? She can go for the Mt Ophir trip in Malaysia.. Why not ME?!?
Until now, i don't even have a passport.. From last year my dad has been saying about the passport thing and till now still haven made yet.. 1 fine day when i get my pay (cos i work in The Cafe Cartel @ Junction 8), the next thing i go to is the ICA building.. Everything settle myself.. Telling my parents is just a waste of time and delay.. This cannot that cannot.. I don't want this kind of ANSWERS.. Everything i just have to depend on my own.. Have to learn how to be INDEPENDENT.. Do things in my own way.. I can't stand it living in this world with lots of RESTRICTIONS.. Everyone of us only have 1 chance of living in this world, and we are supposed to make full use of ourselves to the fullest, and to leave this world with NO regrets.. Same goes for me.. I don't want to leave this world FULL of REGRETS because of all these damn RESTRICTIONS!! I also hope that i can live in this world for infinity years but i guess this is impossible.. The fact that i have buses as my hobby, partly is also because it allows me to have more opportunities to explore more of the outside world rather than just remaining in my comfort zone and rot! The fact that i joined Venture Era is also partly because of that! Although i faced a lot a lot of obstacles and rejections in it, but at least i TRIED (although i admit it's not to my best that i can).
Time now is 4:38am when i finish writing this sentence.. Still don't have the mood to sleep.. Haiz.. I have finished what i'm going to say.. Peace out..
Victor Lim