10:56 PM
What A Bad Day For Me.. Haiz...Today is my first time marking my self-evaluation really down ever since the 1st day of the 1st semester. I onli mark myself 1 part of all the questions as "neutral" and the rest i put "not well". Really.. I contributed the least and just only about 1 point or 2. That's all.. Seriously i don't know what has happened to me besides being very tired everyday, regardless of whether i have my night activities or not.. I think this has become my daily habit and it's natural for me to feel tired at any time of the day especially noon and afternoon.
Until now i find that i still have not overcome my weaknesses, i.e, can't think of much things, therefore can't really contributes well to my team during the discussion. Haiz.. I really hope that i will be able to improve within the next few days or weeks and especially with my new class, i find that i will be able to improve much more better as during the team discussion, our class people seem to be serious about it and now sit down there and play games without any work being done, as if they knows everything like that.. Of course, i don't day that my previous class is bad. The good thing is that my previous class has the most extreme of everything.. From hardworking & serious to slackers & only know how to play game & talk big, etc etc etc...
Overall, i feel that i should not even deserve a "C" for today's lesson because of my damn lousy ass shit performance.. and i really wish to apologise to all my teammates especially Hong Sheng for being such a ass teammate which bullshit performance.. Really sorry to all of you.. Hong Sheng.. Iqa.. Ahkbar.. Agnes.. Irna.. I really feel damn bad today and i think it makes no differences whether i'm really inside this team or not.. Haiz..
Just now i went down to Petir basketball with Hong Sheng and indeed it was quite a pretty nice one.. I managed to successfully learn something that i previously used to being unable to do, which i find that at least i have a slight improvement. He was asking me just now whether i wish to accompany him and join the school team.. I said that i must see whether am i really fit or suitable to be part of the school team. As everyone here should know, my fitness level is actually not very good, stamina sux to the core, play a few matches and i feel tired so easily.. What a weak guy am I.. Haiz.. But then I'm so fortunate to have a encouraging friend like him to encourage me to train more and say that when i join the school team, the coach will be able to train us more better.. The thing is whether i can be able to take this challenge or not.. Haiz.. My body is so damn stiff man.. Because of this damn weakness, i encounter a lot of difficulties in a lot of areas, such as basketball, swimming and martial arts.. Seriously i also don't know whether 1 fine day i will be able to overcome such weaknesses, or should i say obstacles.. Haiz.. I shall end my entry here for now.. I still have my RJ which i haven finish yet and somemore tomorrow got Enterprise UT.. Haiz.. Okie.. Cya guys around ;-) Take care wohz.. The World is getting more and more sick.. Drink more waters ya ;-)
Victor Lim