10:26 AM
Feeling down..It's 10:45am and I am sitting in Level 11 of National Library to blog instead of of going to school for SAD lesson.. Don't know why but I just don't have the mood to go for this SAD lesson.. Just don't know why but SAD module really makes me feel demoralized with this Wee Kah Huat aka Shrek.. (Web Application also like that with this damn gay faci by the name of Hong Kok Hsien..)
Last Saturday, my mum was asking if tomorrow (which is yesterday, Sunday) i got Wushu training.. Then I said no and they she asked me to go with them to the temple to bai(4) tai(4) shui(4).. And then I told them that I am not free because I got my usual "gathering" (which is fact is to go for service at Expo), and the next thing my mum started to have the 'bu(4) shuang(3), which is not happy' face liao.. She then scolded a bit before she went off my bedroom.
After which, I talked to Owen on MSN as I was rather very panic and a bit of fear.. and he asked me not to be fearful and really have to have faith in God that He would be able to help me through and overcome it.. Just before I went off to bed, I had my own quiet time and really pray very hard for the coming breakthrough..
The next day came (yesterday, Sunday) and when I went down to have breakfast with my parents, at least they never scolded me and just asked me to go listen ONLY and not to really be involved in it.. (which obviously I am not like that only!!)...
Perhaps my parents still haven really agreed to me for being a Christian, and still regarded my religion as Buddhist... Well.. Really they do need a lot of time to really settle down to accept the fact that I have decided to become a Christian...
Just don't know why.. But some (or in fact, most) parents really are very stubborn and they tend to just follow law-by-law (as in the fact that they just follow their parents' religion and claimed that it's a tradition to do that..) And i just HATE HATE HATE that way!!!
It's like we as individuals were not given a choice as in whether what religion we choose to REALLY (I strongly emphasize the word 'REALLY') believe in.. All of us live in this world only ONCE, and we should really decide our own life path instead of just follow strictly from our parents when they have already set a certain rules for us... We should really choose the kind of life that we really want to lead, and REALLY live our life to the fullest.. NOT FEELING RESTRICTED BECAUSE OF PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, PARENTS, GRANDPARENTS, PARENTS and GRANDPARENTS... (Notice I keep repeating that 2 words..)
Hmmm... I guess... For the coming few months and even years, I have to really pray very hard for the breakthrough for my parents, for they will be more understanding and not asking me to go to temple anymore.. and a lot more lot more....
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Next... Is my financial needs...
Yesterday night, my mum scolded me like hell for not saving up $1 everyday (as in really put inside the saving box and not taking it out) when she wanted me to do that... Yes... I admit that I never do that.. But... It's because of the daily expenses (although I have cut down a lot because I have made the effort to go home for dinner as much as possible, instead of having dinner outside almost everyday), my tithes and offerings that I have contributed and given to the God, and also the building fund for a 2nd and state-of-the-art stadium style grand church (which is going to be the 2nd largest church building in South East Asia)..
Plus... The upcoming Christmas and Thanksgiving season which I really need to spend $$$ to really have the heart and buy things which can be shared among a lot of people.. (and i still haven thought of what thing to buy because I still do not have any idea what to buy.. have to really pray to the God for giving me some ideas as to what to buy and share..)
I guess.. By end of this year, I have really spent quite a lot of $$$, especially with all my W64R friends and all my E447 CG friends.. Although it's really the 'a lot of money', but I still find it very worth it, and it's really a blessing from the God to provide me such a very sociable and friendly class and CG...
Awaiting for the upcoming Year 2008 and very soon I will come up with my Year 2008 resolutions which I am going to write it on the left hand side of my blog where all the personal profile, tagboard and links are... =)
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Well.. time now is 11:59am when I write this sentence.. Time for me to go for lunch soon, and I really have to settle my lunch before it started to rain as the clouds are partially gray le.. Shall blog again later when I am back in National Library..
Victor Lim